Then, holding tightly to the carpet-bag which contained "all her
worldly goods," she followed him into the house.
CHAPTER
III. Marilla Cuthbert is Surprised
Marilla came briskly forward as
Matthew opened the door. But when her eyes fell of the odd little figure in
the stiff, ugly dress, with the long braids of red hair and the eager,
luminous eyes, she stopped short in amazement.
"Matthew Cuthbert,
who's that?" she ejaculated. "Where is the boy?"
"There wasn't any boy,"
said Matthew wretchedly. "There was only HER."
He nodded at the child,
remembering that he had never even asked her name.
"No boy! But there
MUST have been a boy," insisted Marilla. "We sent word to Mrs. Spencer to
bring a boy."
"Well, she didn't. She brought HER. I asked the
station-master. And I had to bring her home. She couldn't be left there, no
matter where the mistake had come in."
"Well, this is a pretty piece
of business!" ejaculated Marilla.
During this dialogue the child had
remained silent, her eyes roving from one to the other, all the animation
fading out of her face. Suddenly she seemed to grasp the full meaning of what
had been said. Dropping her precious carpet-bag she sprang forward a step and
clasped her hands.
"You don't want me!" she cried. "You don't want me
because I'm not a boy! I might have expected it. Nobody ever did want me. I
might have known it was all too beautiful to last. I might have known nobody
really did want me. Oh, what shall I do? I'm going to burst into
tears!"
Burst into tears she did. Sitting down on a chair by the table,
flinging her arms out upon it, and burying her face in them, she proceeded to
cry stormily. Marilla and Matthew looked at each other deprecatingly
across the stove. Neither of them knew what to say or do. Finally
Marilla stepped lamely into the breach.
"Well, well, there's no need
to cry so about it."
"Yes, there IS need!" The child raised her head
quickly, revealing a tear-stained face and trembling lips. "YOU would cry,
too, if you were an orphan and had come to a place you thought was going to
be home and found that they didn't want you because you weren't a boy. Oh,
this is the most TRAGICAL thing that ever happened to me!"
Something
like a reluctant smile, rather rusty from long disuse, mellowed Marilla's
grim expression.
"Well, don't cry any more. We're not going to turn you
out-of-doors to-night. You'll have to stay here until we investigate this
affair. What's your name?"
The child hesitated for a
moment.
"Will you please call me Cordelia?" she said
eagerly.
"CALL you Cordelia? Is that your name?"
"No-o-o, it's not
exactly my name, but I would love to be called Cordelia. It's such a
perfectly elegant name."
"I don't know what on earth you mean. If
Cordelia isn't your name, what is?"
"Anne Shirley," reluctantly
faltered forth the owner of that name, "but, oh, please do call me Cordelia.
It can't matter much to you what you call me if I'm only going to be here a
little while, can it? And Anne is such an unromantic
name."
"Unromantic fiddlesticks!" said the unsympathetic Marilla. "Anne
is a real good plain sensible name. You've no need to be ashamed of
it."
"Oh, I'm not ashamed of it," explained Anne, "only I like
Cordelia better. I've always imagined that my name was Cordelia--at least,
I always have of late years. When I was young I used to imagine it
was Geraldine, but I like Cordelia better now. But if you call me
Anne please call me Anne spelled with an E."
"What difference does it
make how it's spelled?" asked Marilla with another rusty smile as she picked
up the teapot.
"Oh, it makes SUCH a difference. It LOOKS so much nicer.
When you hear a name pronounced can't you always see it in your mind, just as
if it was printed out? I can; and A-n-n looks dreadful, but A-n-n-e looks so
much more distinguished. If you'll only call me Anne spelled with an E
I shall try to reconcile myself to not being called Cordelia."
"Very
well, then, Anne spelled with an E, can you tell us how this mistake came to
be made? We sent word to Mrs. Spencer to bring us a boy. Were there no boys
at the asylum?"
"Oh, yes, there was an abundance of them. But Mrs.
Spencer said DISTINCTLY that you wanted a girl about eleven years old. And
the matron said she thought I would do. You don't know how delighted I was.
I couldn't sleep all last night for joy. Oh," she added
reproachfully, turning to Matthew, "why didn't you tell me at the station
that you didn't want me and leave me there? If I hadn't seen the White Way
of Delight and the Lake of Shining Waters it wouldn't be so
hard."
"What on earth does she mean?" demanded Marilla, staring at
Matthew.
"She--she's just referring to some conversation we had on the
road," said Matthew hastily. "I'm going out to put the mare in, Marilla.
Have tea ready when I come back."
"Did Mrs. Spencer bring anybody over
besides you?" continued Marilla when Matthew had gone out.
"She
brought Lily Jones for herself. Lily is only five years old and she is very
beautiful and had nut-brown hair. If I was very beautiful and had nut-brown
hair would you keep me?"
"No. We want a boy to help Matthew on the farm.
A girl would be of no use to us. Take off your hat. I'll lay it and your bag
on the hall table."
Anne took off her hat meekly. Matthew came back
presently and they sat down to supper. But Anne could not eat. In vain she
nibbled at the bread and butter and pecked at the crab-apple preserve out of
the little scalloped glass dish by her plate. She did not really make any
headway at all.
"You're not eating anything," said Marilla sharply,
eying her as if it were a serious shortcoming. Anne sighed.
"I can't.
I'm in the depths of despair. Can you eat when you are in the depths of
despair?"
"I've never been in the depths of despair, so I can't say,"
responded Marilla.
"Weren't you? Well, did you ever try to IMAGINE you
were in the depths of despair?"
"No, I didn't."
"Then I don't
think you can understand what it's like. It's very uncomfortable feeling
indeed. When you try to eat a lump comes right up in your throat and you
can't swallow anything, not even if it was a chocolate caramel. I had one
chocolate caramel once two years ago and it was simply delicious. I've often
dreamed since then that I had a lot of chocolate caramels, but I always wake
up just when I'm going to eat them. I do hope you won't be offended because I
can't eat. Everything is extremely nice, but still I cannot eat."
"I
guess she's tired," said Matthew, who hadn't spoken since his return from the
barn. "Best put her to bed, Marilla."
Marilla had been wondering where
Anne should be put to bed. She had prepared a couch in the kitchen chamber
for the desired and expected boy. But, although it was neat and clean, it did
not seem quite the thing to put a girl there somehow. But the spare room was
out of the question for such a stray waif, so there remained only the east
gable room. Marilla lighted a candle and told Anne to follow her, which
Anne spiritlessly did, taking her hat and carpet-bag from the hall table
as she passed. The hall was fearsomely clean; the little gable chamber
in which she presently found herself seemed still cleaner.
Marilla set
the candle on a three-legged, three-cornered table and turned down the
bedclothes.
"I suppose you have a nightgown?" she questioned.
Anne
nodded.
"Yes, I have two. The matron of the asylum made them for me.
They're fearfully skimpy. There is never enough to go around in an asylum,
so things are always skimpy--at least in a poor asylum like ours. I
hate skimpy night-dresses. But one can dream just as well in them as in
lovely trailing ones, with frills around the neck, that's
one consolation."
"Well, undress as quick as you can and go to bed.
I'll come back in a few minutes for the candle. I daren't trust you to put it
out yourself. You'd likely set the place on fire."
When Marilla had
gone Anne looked around her wistfully. The whitewashed walls were so
painfully bare and staring that she thought they must ache over their own
bareness. The floor was bare, too, except for a round braided mat in the
middle such as Anne had never seen before. In one corner was the bed, a high,
old-fashioned one, with four dark, low-turned posts. In the other corner was
the aforesaid three-corner table adorned with a fat, red velvet pin-cushion
hard enough to turn the point of the most adventurous pin. Above it hung a
little six-by-eight mirror. Midway between table and bed was the window, with
an icy white muslin frill over it, and opposite it was the wash-stand. The
whole apartment was of a rigidity not to be described in words, but
which sent a shiver to the very marrow of Anne's bones. With a sob she
hastily discarded her garments, put on the skimpy nightgown and sprang into
bed where she burrowed face downward into the pillow and pulled the
clothes over her head. When Marilla came up for the light various
skimpy articles of raiment scattered most untidily over the floor and a
certain tempestuous appearance of the bed were the only indications of
any presence save her own.
She deliberately picked up Anne's clothes,
placed them neatly on a prim yellow chair, and then, taking up the candle,
went over to the bed.
"Good night," she said, a little awkwardly, but not
unkindly.
Anne's white face and big eyes appeared over the bedclothes
with a startling suddenness.
"How can you call it a GOOD night when
you know it must be the very worst night I've ever had?" she said
reproachfully.
Then she dived down into invisibility
again.
Marilla went slowly down to the kitchen and proceeded to wash the
supper dishes. Matthew was smoking--a sure sign of perturbation of mind.
He seldom smoked, for Marilla set her face against it as a filthy
habit; but at certain times and seasons he felt driven to it and them
Marilla winked at the practice, realizing that a mere man must have some
vent for his emotions.
"Well, this is a pretty kettle of fish," she
said wrathfully. "This is what comes of sending word instead of going
ourselves. Richard Spencer's folks have twisted that message somehow. One of
us will have to drive over and see Mrs. Spencer tomorrow, that's certain.
This girl will have to be sent back to the asylum."
"Yes, I suppose
so," said Matthew reluctantly.
"You SUPPOSE so! Don't you know
it?"
"Well now, she's a real nice little thing, Marilla. It's kind of a
pity to send her back when she's so set on staying here."
"Matthew
Cuthbert, you don't mean to say you think we ought to
keep her!"
Marilla's astonishment could not have been greater if
Matthew had expressed a predilection for standing on his head.
"Well,
now, no, I suppose not--not exactly," stammered Matthew, uncomfortably driven
into a corner for his precise meaning. "I suppose--we could hardly be
expected to keep her."
"I should say not. What good would she be to
us?"
"We might be some good to her," said Matthew suddenly and
unexpectedly.
"Matthew Cuthbert, I believe that child has bewitched you!
I can see as plain as plain that you want to keep her."
"Well now,
she's a real interesting little thing," persisted Matthew. "You should have
heard her talk coming from the station."
"Oh, she can talk fast enough. I
saw that at once. It's nothing in her favour, either. I don't like children
who have so much to say. I don't want an orphan girl and if I did she isn't
the style I'd pick out. There's something I don't understand about her. No,
she's got to be despatched straight-way back to where she came
from."
"I could hire a French boy to help me," said Matthew, "and she'd
be company for you."
"I'm not suffering for company," said Marilla
shortly. "And I'm not going to keep her."
"Well now, it's just as you
say, of course, Marilla," said Matthew rising and putting his pipe away. "I'm
going to bed."
To bed went Matthew. And to bed, when she had put her
dishes away, went Marilla, frowning most resolutely. And up-stairs, in the
east gable, a lonely, heart-hungry, friendless child cried herself to
sleep.
CHAPTER IV. Morning at Green Gables
It was
broad daylight when Anne awoke and sat up in bed, staring confusedly at the
window through which a flood of cheery sunshine was pouring and outside of
which something white and feathery waved across glimpses of blue
sky.
For a moment she could not remember where she was. First came
a delightful thrill, as something very pleasant; then a
horrible remembrance. This was Green Gables and they didn't want her because
she wasn't a boy!
But it was morning and, yes, it was a cherry-tree in
full bloom outside of her window. With a bound she was out of bed and across
the floor. She pushed up the sash--it went up stiffly and creakily, as if it
hadn't been opened for a long time, which was the case; and it stuck so
tight that nothing was needed to hold it up.
Anne dropped on her knees
and gazed out into the June morning, her eyes glistening with delight. Oh,
wasn't it beautiful? Wasn't it a lovely place? Suppose she wasn't really
going to stay here! She would imagine she was. There was scope for
imagination here.
A huge cherry-tree grew outside, so close that its
boughs tapped against the house, and it was so thick-set with blossoms that
hardly a leaf was to be seen. On both sides of the house was a big orchard,
one of apple-trees and one of cherry-trees, also showered over with
blossoms; and their grass was all sprinkled with dandelions. In the garden
below were lilac-trees purple with flowers, and their dizzily sweet
fragrance drifted up to the window on the morning wind.
Below the
garden a green field lush with clover sloped down to the hollow where the
brook ran and where scores of white birches grew, upspringing airily out of
an undergrowth suggestive of delightful possibilities in ferns and mosses and
woodsy things generally. Beyond it was a hill, green and feathery with spruce
and fir; there was a gap in it where the gray gable end of the little house
she had seen from the other side of the Lake of Shining Waters was
visible.
Off to the left were the big barns and beyond them, away down
over green, low-sloping fields, was a sparkling blue glimpse of
sea.
Anne's beauty-loving eyes lingered on it all, taking everything
greedily in. She had looked on so many unlovely places in her life, poor
child; but this was as lovely as anything she had ever dreamed.
She
knelt there, lost to everything but the loveliness around her, until she was
startled by a hand on her shoulder. Marilla had come in unheard by the small
dreamer.
"It's time you were dressed," she said curtly.
Marilla
really did not know how to talk to the child, and her uncomfortable ignorance
made her crisp and curt when she did not mean to be.
Anne stood up and
drew a long breath.
"Oh, isn't it wonderful?" she said, waving her hand
comprehensively at the good world outside.
"It's a big tree," said
Marilla, "and it blooms great, but the fruit don't amount to much
never--small and wormy."
"Oh, I don't mean just the tree; of course it's
lovely--yes, it's RADIANTLY lovely--it blooms as if it meant it--but I meant
everything, the garden and the orchard and the brook and the woods, the whole
big dear world. Don't you feel as if you just loved the world on a
morning like this? And I can hear the brook laughing all the way up
here. Have you ever noticed what cheerful things brooks are? They're
always laughing. Even in winter-time I've heard them under the ice. I'm so
glad there's a brook near Green Gables. Perhaps you think it doesn't make
any difference to me when you're not going to keep me, but it does. I
shall always like to remember that there is a brook at Green Gables even
if I never see it again. If there wasn't a brook I'd be HAUNTED by
the uncomfortable feeling that there ought to be one. I'm not in the
depths of despair this morning. I never can be in the morning. Isn't it
a splendid thing that there are mornings? But I feel very sad. I've
just been imagining that it was really me you wanted after all and that I
was to stay here for ever and ever. It was a great comfort while it
lasted. But the worst of imagining things is that the time comes when you
have to stop and that hurts."
"You'd better get dressed and come
down-stairs and never mind your imaginings," said Marilla as soon as she
could get a word in edgewise. "Breakfast is waiting. Wash your face and comb
your hair. Leave the window up and turn your bedclothes back over the foot of
the bed. Be as smart as you can."
Anne could evidently be smart to
some purpose for she was down-stairs in ten minutes' time, with her clothes
neatly on, her hair brushed and braided, her face washed, and a comfortable
consciousness pervading her soul that she had fulfilled all Marilla's
requirements. As a matter of fact, however, she had forgotten to turn back
the bedclothes.
"I'm pretty hungry this morning," she announced as she
slipped into the chair Marilla placed for her. "The world doesn't seem such a
howling wilderness as it did last night. I'm so glad it's a sunshiny
morning. But I like rainy mornings real well, too. All sorts of mornings
are interesting, don't you think? You don't know what's going to
happen through the day, and there's so much scope for imagination. But
I'm glad it's not rainy today because it's easier to be cheerful and
bear up under affliction on a sunshiny day. I feel that I have a good
deal to bear up under. It's all very well to read about sorrows and
imagine yourself living through them heroically, but it's not so nice when
you really come to have them, is it?"
"For pity's sake hold your
tongue," said Marilla. "You talk entirely too much for a little
girl."
Thereupon Anne held her tongue so obediently and thoroughly that
her continued silence made Marilla rather nervous, as if in the presence
of something not exactly natural. Matthew also held his tongue,--but
this was natural,--so that the meal was a very silent one.
As it
progressed Anne became more and more abstracted, eating mechanically, with
her big eyes fixed unswervingly and unseeingly on the sky outside the window.
This made Marilla more nervous than ever; she had an uncomfortable feeling
that while this odd child's body might be there at the table her spirit was
far away in some remote airy cloudland, borne aloft on the wings of
imagination. Who would want such a child about the place?
Yet Matthew
wished to keep her, of all unaccountable things! Marilla felt that he wanted
it just as much this morning as he had the night before, and that he would go
on wanting it. That was Matthew's way--take a whim into his head and cling to
it with the most amazing silent persistency--a persistency ten times more
potent and effectual in its very silence than if he had talked it
out.
When the meal was ended Anne came out of her reverie and offered to
wash the dishes.
"Can you wash dishes right?" asked Marilla
distrustfully.
"Pretty well. I'm better at looking after children,
though. I've had so much experience at that. It's such a pity you haven't any
here for me to look after."
"I don't feel as if I wanted any more
children to look after than I've got at present. YOU'RE problem enough in all
conscience. What's to be done with you I don't know. Matthew is a most
ridiculous man."
"I think he's lovely," said Anne reproachfully. "He is
so very sympathetic. He didn't mind how much I talked--he seemed to like it.
I felt that he was a kindred spirit as soon as ever I saw
him."
"You're both queer enough, if that's what you mean by kindred
spirits," said Marilla with a sniff. "Yes, you may wash the dishes. Take
plenty of hot water, and be sure you dry them well. I've got enough to attend
to this morning for I'll have to drive over to White Sands in the
afternoon and see Mrs. Spencer. You'll come with me and we'll settle what's
to be done with you. After you've finished the dishes go up-stairs and
make your bed."
Anne washed the dishes deftly enough, as Marilla who
kept a sharp eye on the process, discerned. Later on she made her bed less
successfully, for she had never learned the art of wrestling with a feather
tick. But is was done somehow and smoothed down; and then Marilla, to get rid
of her, told her she might go out-of-doors and amuse herself until dinner
time.
Anne flew to the door, face alight, eyes glowing. On the very
threshold she stopped short, wheeled about, came back and sat down by the
table, light and glow as effectually blotted out as if some one had clapped
an extinguisher on her.
"What's the matter now?" demanded
Marilla.
"I don't dare go out," said Anne, in the tone of a martyr
relinquishing all earthly joys. "If I can't stay here there is no use in my
loving Green Gables. And if I go out there and get acquainted with all
those trees and flowers and the orchard and the brook I'll not be able to
help loving it. It's hard enough now, so I won't make it any harder. I
want to go out so much--everything seems to be calling to me, 'Anne,
Anne, come out to us. Anne, Anne, we want a playmate'--but it's better
not. There is no use in loving things if you have to be torn from them,
is there? And it's so hard to keep from loving things, isn't it? That
was why I was so glad when I thought I was going to live here. I
thought I'd have so many things to love and nothing to hinder me. But that
brief dream is over. I am resigned to my fate now, so I don't think
I'll go out for fear I'll get unresigned again. What is the name of
that geranium on the window-sill, please?"
"That's the apple-scented
geranium."
"Oh, I don't mean that sort of a name. I mean just a name you
gave it yourself. Didn't you give it a name? May I give it one then? May I
call it--let me see--Bonny would do--may I call it Bonny while I'm here?
Oh, do let me!"
"Goodness, I don't care. But where on earth is the
sense of naming a geranium?"
"Oh, I like things to have handles even
if they are only geraniums. It makes them seem more like people. How do you
know but that it hurts a geranium's feelings just to be called a geranium and
nothing else? You wouldn't like to be called nothing but a woman all the
time. Yes, I shall call it Bonny. I named that cherry-tree outside my bedroom
window this morning. I called it Snow Queen because it was so white. Of
course, it won't always be in blossom, but one can imagine that it is,
can't one?"
"I never in all my life saw or heard anything to equal
her," muttered Marilla, beating a retreat down to the cellar after potatoes.
"She is kind of interesting as Matthew says. I can feel already that
I'm wondering what on earth she'll say next. She'll be casting a spell
over me, too. She's cast it over Matthew. That look he gave me when he
went out said everything he said or hinted last night over again. I wish
he was like other men and would talk things out. A body could answer
back then and argue him into reason. But what's to be done with a man
who just LOOKS?"
Anne had relapsed into reverie, with her chin in her
hands and her eyes on the sky, when Marilla returned from her cellar
pilgrimage. There Marilla left her until the early dinner was on the
table.
"I suppose I can have the mare and buggy this afternoon, Matthew?"
said Marilla.
Matthew nodded and looked wistfully at Anne. Marilla
intercepted the look and said grimly:
"I'm going to drive over to
White Sands and settle this thing. I'll take Anne with me and Mrs. Spencer
will probably make arrangements to send her back to Nova Scotia at once. I'll
set your tea out for you and I'll be home in time to milk the
cows."
Still Matthew said nothing and Marilla had a sense of having
wasted words and breath. There is nothing more aggravating than a man who
won't talk back--unless it is a woman who won't.
Matthew hitched the
sorrel into the buggy in due time and Marilla and Anne set off. Matthew
opened the yard gate for them and as they drove slowly through, he said, to
nobody in particular as it seemed:
"Little Jerry Buote from the Creek was
here this morning, and I told him I guessed I'd hire him for the
summer."
Marilla made no reply, but she hit the unlucky sorrel such a
vicious clip with the whip that the fat mare, unused to such treatment,
whizzed indignantly down the lane at an alarming pace. Marilla looked back
once as the buggy bounced along and saw that aggravating Matthew leaning
over the gate, looking wistfully after them.
CHAPTER V.
Anne's History
"Do you know," said Anne confidentially, "I've made up
my mind to enjoy this drive. It's been my experience that you can nearly
always enjoy things if you make up your mind firmly that you will. Of course,
you must make it up FIRMLY. I am not going to think about going back to
the asylum while we're having our drive. I'm just going to think about the
drive. Oh, look, there's one little early wild rose out! Isn't it lovely?
Don't you think it must be glad to be a rose? Wouldn't it be nice if roses
could talk? I'm sure they could tell us such lovely things. And isn't pink
the most bewitching color in the world? I love it, but I can't wear it.
Redheaded people can't wear pink, not even in imagination. Did you ever know
of anybody whose hair was red when she was young, but got to be another color
when she grew up?"
"No, I don't know as I ever did," said Marilla
mercilessly, "and I shouldn't think it likely to happen in your case
either."
Anne sighed.
"Well, that is another hope gone. 'My life
is a perfect graveyard of buried hopes.' That's a sentence I read in a book
once, and I say it over to comfort myself whenever I'm disappointed in
anything."
"I don't see where the comforting comes in myself," said
Marilla.
"Why, because it sounds so nice and romantic, just as if I were
a heroine in a book, you know. I am so fond of romantic things, and
a graveyard full of buried hopes is about as romantic a thing as one
can imagine isn't it? I'm rather glad I have one. Are we going across
the Lake of Shining Waters today?"
"We're not going over Barry's pond,
if that's what you mean by your Lake of Shining Waters. We're going by the
shore road."
"Shore road sounds nice," said Anne dreamily. "Is it as nice
as it sounds? Just when you said 'shore road' I saw it in a picture in
my mind, as quick as that! And White Sands is a pretty name, too; but
I don't like it as well as Avonlea. Avonlea is a lovely name. It
just sounds like music. How far is it to White Sands?"
"It's five
miles; and as you're evidently bent on talking you might as well talk to some
purpose by telling me what you know about yourself."
"Oh, what I KNOW
about myself isn't really worth telling," said Anne eagerly. "If you'll only
let me tell you what I IMAGINE about myself you'll think it ever so much more
interesting."
"No, I don't want any of your imaginings. Just you stick to
bald facts. Begin at the beginning. Where were you born and how old are
you?"
"I was eleven last March," said Anne, resigning herself to bald
facts with a little sigh. "And I was born in Bolingbroke, Nova Scotia. My
father's name was Walter Shirley, and he was a teacher in the Bolingbroke
High School. My mother's name was Bertha Shirley. Aren't Walter and Bertha
lovely names? I'm so glad my parents had nice names. It would be a real
disgrace to have a father named--well, say Jedediah, wouldn't it?"
"I
guess it doesn't matter what a person's name is as long as he
behaves himself," said Marilla, feeling herself called upon to inculcate a
good and useful moral.
"Well, I don't know." Anne looked thoughtful.
"I read in a book once that a rose by any other name would smell as sweet,
but I've never been able to believe it. I don't believe a rose WOULD be as
nice if it was called a thistle or a skunk cabbage. I suppose my father could
have been a good man even if he had been called Jedediah; but I'm sure it
would have been a cross. Well, my mother was a teacher in the High
school, too, but when she married father she gave up teaching, of course.
A husband was enough responsibility. Mrs. Thomas said that they were a
pair of babies and as poor as church mice. They went to live in a weeny-teeny
little yellow house in Bolingbroke. I've never seen that house, but I've
imagined it thousands of times. I think it must have had honeysuckle over the
parlor window and lilacs in the front yard and lilies of the valley just
inside the gate. Yes, and muslin curtains in all the windows. Muslin curtains
give a house such an air. I was born in that house. Mrs. Thomas said I was
the homeliest baby she ever saw, I was so scrawny and tiny and nothing but
eyes, but that mother thought I was perfectly beautiful. I should think a
mother would be a better judge than a poor woman who came in to scrub,
wouldn't you? I'm glad she was satisfied with me anyhow, I would feel so sad
if I thought I was a disappointment to her--because she didn't live very long
after that, you see. She died of fever when I was just three months old. I do
wish she'd lived long enough for me to remember calling her mother. I think
it would be so sweet to say 'mother,' don't you? And father died four
days afterwards from fever too. That left me an orphan and folks were
at their wits' end, so Mrs. Thomas said, what to do with me. You
see, nobody wanted me even then. It seems to be my fate. Father and
mother had both come from places far away and it was well known they hadn't
any relatives living. Finally Mrs. Thomas said she'd take me, though she
was poor and had a drunken husband. She brought me up by hand. Do you
know if there is anything in being brought up by hand that ought to
make people who are brought up that way better than other people?
Because whenever I was naughty Mrs. Thomas would ask me how I could be such
a bad girl when she had brought me up by hand--reproachful-like.
"Mr.
and Mrs. Thomas moved away from Bolingbroke to Marysville, and I lived with
them until I was eight years old. I helped look after the Thomas
children--there were four of them younger than me--and I can tell you they
took a lot of looking after. Then Mr. Thomas was killed falling under a train
and his mother offered to take Mrs. Thomas and the children, but she didn't
want me. Mrs. Thomas was at HER wits' end, so she said, what to do with me.
Then Mrs. Hammond from up the river came down and said she'd take me, seeing
I was handy with children, and I went up the river to live with her in a
little clearing among the stumps. It was a very lonesome place. I'm sure I
could never have lived there if I hadn't had an imagination. Mr. Hammond
worked a little sawmill up there, and Mrs. Hammond had eight children. She
had twins three times. I like babies in moderation, but twins three times
in succession is TOO MUCH. I told Mrs. Hammond so firmly, when the
last pair came. I used to get so dreadfully tired carrying them
about.
"I lived up river with Mrs. Hammond over two years, and then Mr.
Hammond died and Mrs. Hammond broke up housekeeping. She divided her
children among her relatives and went to the States. I had to go to the
asylum at Hopeton, because nobody would take me. They didn't want me at
the asylum, either; they said they were over-crowded as it was. But they
had to take me and I was there four months until Mrs. Spencer
came."
Anne finished up with another sigh, of relief this time.
Evidently she did not like talking about her experiences in a world that had
not wanted her.
"Did you ever go to school?" demanded Marilla, turning
the sorrel mare down the shore road.
"Not a great deal. I went a
little the last year I stayed with Mrs. Thomas. When I went up river we were
so far from a school that I couldn't walk it in winter and there was a
vacation in summer, so I could only go in the spring and fall. But of course
I went while I was at the asylum. I can read pretty well and I know ever so
many pieces of poetry off by heart--'The Battle of Hohenlinden' and
'Edinburgh after Flodden,' and 'Bingen of the Rhine,' and most of the 'Lady
of the Lake' and most of 'The Seasons' by James Thompson. Don't you just love
poetry that gives you a crinkly feeling up and down your back? There is a
piece in the Fifth Reader--'The Downfall of Poland'--that is just full
of thrills. Of course, I wasn't in the Fifth Reader--I was only in
the Fourth--but the big girls used to lend me theirs to read."
"Were
those women--Mrs. Thomas and Mrs. Hammond--good to you?" asked Marilla,
looking at Anne out of the corner of her eye.
"O-o-o-h," faltered Anne.
Her sensitive little face suddenly flushed scarlet and embarrassment sat on
her brow. "Oh, they MEANT to be--I know they meant to be just as good and
kind as possible. And when people mean to be good to you, you don't mind very
much when they're not quite--always. They had a good deal to worry them, you
know. It's very trying to have a drunken husband, you see; and it must be
very trying to have twins three times in succession, don't you think? But I
feel sure they meant to be good to me."
Marilla asked no more
questions. Anne gave herself up to a silent rapture over the shore road and
Marilla guided the sorrel abstractedly while she pondered deeply. Pity was
suddenly stirring in her heart for the child. What a starved, unloved life
she had had--a life of drudgery and poverty and neglect; for Marilla was
shrewd enough to read between the lines of Anne's history and divine the
truth. No wonder she had been so delighted at the prospect of a real home. It
was a pity she had to be sent back. What if she, Marilla, should indulge
Matthew's unaccountable whim and let her stay? He was set on it; and the
child seemed a nice, teachable little thing.
"She's got too much to
say," thought Marilla, "but she might be trained out of that. And there's
nothing rude or slangy in what she does say. She's ladylike. It's likely her
people were nice folks."
The shore road was "woodsy and wild and
lonesome." On the right hand, scrub firs, their spirits quite unbroken by
long years of tussle with the gulf winds, grew thickly. On the left were the
steep red sandstone cliffs, so near the track in places that a mare of less
steadiness than the sorrel might have tried the nerves of the people behind
her. Down at the base of the cliffs were heaps of surf-worn rocks or little
sandy coves inlaid with pebbles as with ocean jewels; beyond lay the
sea, shimmering and blue, and over it soared the gulls, their
pinions flashing silvery in the sunlight.
"Isn't the sea wonderful?"
said Anne, rousing from a long, wide-eyed silence. "Once, when I lived in
Marysville, Mr. Thomas hired an express wagon and took us all to spend the
day at the shore ten miles away. I enjoyed every moment of that day, even if
I had to look after the children all the time. I lived it over in happy
dreams for years. But this shore is nicer than the Marysville shore. Aren't
those gulls splendid? Would you like to be a gull? I think I would--that is,
if I couldn't be a human girl. Don't you think it would be nice to wake up
at sunrise and swoop down over the water and away out over that lovely
blue all day; and then at night to fly back to one's nest? Oh, I can
just imagine myself doing it. What big house is that just ahead,
please?"
"That's the White Sands Hotel. Mr. Kirke runs it, but the season
hasn't begun yet. There are heaps of Americans come there for the summer.
They think this shore is just about right."
"I was afraid it might be
Mrs. Spencer's place," said Anne mournfully. "I don't want to get there.
Somehow, it will seem like the end of everything."
CHAPTER
VI. Marilla Makes Up Her Mind
Get there they did, however, in due
season. Mrs. Spencer lived in a big yellow house at White Sands Cove, and she
came to the door with surprise and welcome mingled on her benevolent
face.
"Dear, dear," she exclaimed, "you're the last folks I was looking
for today, but I'm real glad to see you. You'll put your horse in? And
how are you, Anne?"
"I'm as well as can be expected, thank you," said
Anne smilelessly. A blight seemed to have descended on her.
"I suppose
we'll stay a little while to rest the mare," said Marilla, "but I promised
Matthew I'd be home early. The fact is, Mrs. Spencer, there's been a queer
mistake somewhere, and I've come over to see where it is. We send word,
Matthew and I, for you to bring us a boy from the asylum. We told your
brother Robert to tell you we wanted a boy ten or eleven years
old."
"Marilla Cuthbert, you don't say so!" said Mrs. Spencer in
distress. "Why, Robert sent word down by his daughter Nancy and she said
you wanted a girl--didn't she Flora Jane?" appealing to her daughter who
had come out to the steps.
"She certainly did, Miss Cuthbert,"
corroborated Flora Jane earnestly.
"I'm dreadful sorry," said Mrs.
Spencer. "It's too bad; but it certainly wasn't my fault, you see, Miss
Cuthbert. I did the best I could and I thought I was following your
instructions. Nancy is a terrible flighty thing. I've often had to scold her
well for her heedlessness."
"It was our own fault," said Marilla
resignedly. "We should have come to you ourselves and not left an important
message to be passed along by word of mouth in that fashion. Anyhow, the
mistake has been made and the only thing to do is to set it right. Can we
send the child back to the asylum? I suppose they'll take her back, won't
they?"
"I suppose so," said Mrs. Spencer thoughtfully, "but I don't
think it will be necessary to send her back. Mrs. Peter Blewett was up
here yesterday, and she was saying to me how much she wished she'd sent by
me for a little girl to help her. Mrs. Peter has a large family, you
know, and she finds it hard to get help. Anne will be the very girl for you.
I call it positively providential."
Marilla did not look as if she
thought Providence had much to do with the matter. Here was an unexpectedly
good chance to get this unwelcome orphan off her hands, and she did not even
feel grateful for it.
She knew Mrs. Peter Blewett only by sight as a
small, shrewish-faced woman without an ounce of superfluous flesh on her
bones. But she had heard of her. "A terrible worker and driver," Mrs. Peter
was said to be; and discharged servant girls told fearsome tales of her
temper and stinginess, and her family of pert, quarrelsome children. Marilla
felt a qualm of conscience at the thought of handing Anne over to her
tender mercies.
"Well, I'll go in and we'll talk the matter over," she
said.
"And if there isn't Mrs. Peter coming up the lane this blessed
minute!" exclaimed Mrs. Spencer, bustling her guests through the hall into
the parlor, where a deadly chill struck on them as if the air had
been strained so long through dark green, closely drawn blinds that it
had lost every particle of warmth it had ever possessed. "That is
real lucky, for we can settle the matter right away. Take the armchair,
Miss Cuthbert. Anne, you sit here on the ottoman and don't wiggle. Let me
take your hats. Flora Jane, go out and put the kettle on. Good afternoon,
Mrs. Blewett. We were just saying how fortunate it was you happened along.
Let me introduce you two ladies. Mrs. Blewett, Miss Cuthbert. Please excuse
me for just a moment. I forgot to tell Flora Jane to take the buns out of the
oven."
Mrs. Spencer whisked away, after pulling up the blinds. Anne
sitting mutely on the ottoman, with her hands clasped tightly in her lap,
stared at Mrs Blewett as one fascinated. Was she to be given into the
keeping of this sharp-faced, sharp-eyed woman? She felt a lump coming up in
her throat and her eyes smarted painfully. She was beginning to be
afraid she couldn't keep the tears back when Mrs. Spencer returned,
flushed and beaming, quite capable of taking any and every difficulty,
physical, mental or spiritual, into consideration and settling it out of
hand.
"It seems there's been a mistake about this little girl, Mrs.
Blewett," she said. "I was under the impression that Mr. and Miss Cuthbert
wanted a little girl to adopt. I was certainly told so. But it seems it was
a boy they wanted. So if you're still of the same mind you were
yesterday, I think she'll be just the thing for you."
Mrs. Blewett
darted her eyes over Anne from head to foot.
"How old are you and what's
your name?" she demanded.
"Anne Shirley," faltered the shrinking child,
not daring to make any stipulations regarding the spelling thereof, "and I'm
eleven years old."
"Humph! You don't look as if there was much to you.
But you're wiry. I don't know but the wiry ones are the best after all. Well,
if I take you you'll have to be a good girl, you know--good and smart and
respectful. I'll expect you to earn your keep, and no mistake about that.
Yes, I suppose I might as well take her off your hands, Miss Cuthbert.
The baby's awful fractious, and I'm clean worn out attending to him. If
you like I can take her right home now."
Marilla looked at Anne and
softened at sight of the child's pale face with its look of mute misery--the
misery of a helpless little creature who finds itself once more caught in the
trap from which it had escaped. Marilla felt an uncomfortable conviction
that, if she denied the appeal of that look, it would haunt her to her dying
day. More-over, she did not fancy Mrs. Blewett. To hand a sensitive,
"highstrung" child over to such a woman! No, she could not take the
responsibility of doing that!
"Well, I don't know," she said slowly. "I
didn't say that Matthew and I had absolutely decided that we wouldn't keep
her. In fact I may say that Matthew is disposed to keep her. I just came over
to find out how the mistake had occurred. I think I'd better take her home
again and talk it over with Matthew. I feel that I oughtn't to decide on
anything without consulting him. If we make up our mind not to keep her we'll
bring or send her over to you tomorrow night. If we don't you may know that
she is going to stay with us. Will that suit you, Mrs.
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