The Old Lady thought it a most beautiful June. She no longer
hated the new days; on the contrary, she welcomed them.
"Every day is
an uncommon day now," she said jubilantly to herself--for did not almost
every day bring her a glimpse of Sylvia? Even on rainy days the Old Lady
gallantly braved rheumatism to hide behind her clump of dripping spruces and
watch Sylvia pass. The only days she could not see her were Sundays; and no
Sundays had ever seemed so long to Old Lady Lloyd as those June Sundays
did.
One day the egg pedlar had news for her.
"The music teacher
is going to sing a solo for a collection piece to-morrow," he told
her.
The Old Lady's black eyes flashed with interest.
"I didn't
know Miss Gray was a member of the choir," she said.
"Jined two Sundays
ago. I tell you, our music is something worth listening to now. The church'll
be packed to-morrow, I reckon--her name's gone all over the country for
singing. You ought to come and hear it, Miss Lloyd."
The pedlar said
this out of bravado, merely to show he wasn't scared of the Old Lady, for all
her grand airs. The Old Lady made no answer, and he thought he had offended
her. He went away, wishing he hadn't said it. Had he but known it, the Old
Lady had forgotten the existence of all and any egg pedlars. He had blotted
himself and his insignificance out of her consciousness by his last sentence.
All her thoughts, feelings, and wishes were submerged in a very whirlpool of
desire to hear Sylvia sing that solo. She went into the house in a tumult and
tried to conquer that desire. She could not do it, even thought she summoned
all her pride to her aid. Pride said:
"You will have to go to church
to hear her. You haven't fit clothes to go to church in. Think what a figure
you will make before them all."
But, for the first time, a more insistent
voice than pride spoke to her soul--and, for the first time, the Old Lady
listened to it. It was too true that she had never gone to church since the
day on which she had to begin wearing her mother's silk dresses. The Old Lady
herself thought that this was very wicked; and she tried to atone by keeping
Sunday very strictly, and always having a little service of her own, morning
and evening. She sang three hymns in her cracked voice, prayed aloud,
and read a sermon. But she could not bring herself to go to church in
her out-of-date clothes--she, who had once set the fashions in
Spencervale, and the longer she stayed away, the more impossible it seemed
that she should ever again go. Now the impossible had become, not only
possible, but insistent. She must go to church and hear Sylvia sing, no
matter how ridiculous she appeared, no matter how people talked and laughed
at her.
Spencervale congregation had a mild sensation the next afternoon.
Just before the opening of service Old Lady Lloyd walked up the aisle and
sat down in the long-unoccupied Lloyd pew, in front of the pulpit.
The
Old Lady's very soul was writhing within her. She recalled the reflection she
had seen in her mirror before she left--the old black silk in the mode of
thirty years agone and the queer little bonnet of shirred black satin. She
thought how absurd she must look in the eyes of her world.
As a matter
of fact, she did not look in the least absurd. Some women might have; but the
Old Lady's stately distinction of carriage and figure was so subtly
commanding that it did away with the consideration of garmenting
altogether.
The Old Lady did not know this. But she did know that Mrs.
Kimball, the storekeeper's wife, presently rustled into the next pew in the
very latest fashion of fabric and mode; she and Mrs. Kimball were the
same age, and there had been a time when the latter had been content to
imitate Margaret Lloyd's costumes at a humble distance. But the storekeeper
had proposed, and things were changed now; and there sat poor Old Lady Lloyd,
feeling the change bitterly, and half wishing she had not come to church at
all.
Then all at once the Angel of Love touched these foolish thoughts,
born of vanity and morbid pride, and they melted away as if they had
never been. Sylvia Gray had come into the choir, and was sitting just
where the afternoon sunshine fell over her beautiful hair like a halo. The
Old Lady looked at her in a rapture of satisfied longing and thenceforth
the service was blessed to her, as anything is blessed which comes
through the medium of unselfish love, whether human or divine. Nay, are they
not one and the same, differing in degree only, not in kind?
The Old
Lady had never had such a good, satisfying look at Sylvia before. All her
former glimpses had been stolen and fleeting. Now she sat and gazed upon her
to her hungry heart's content, lingering delightedly over every little charm
and loveliness--the way Sylvia's shining hair rippled back from her forehead,
the sweet little trick she had of dropping quickly her long-lashed eyelids
when she encountered too bold or curious a glance, and the slender,
beautifully modelled hands--so like Leslie Gray's hands--that held her hymn
book. She was dressed very plainly in a black skirt and a white shirtwaist;
but none of the other girls in the choir, with all their fine feathers,
could hold a candle to her--as the egg pedlar said to his wife, going
home from church.
The Old Lady listened to the opening hymns with keen
pleasure. Sylvia's voice thrilled through and dominated them all. But when
the ushers got up to take the collection, an undercurrent of subdued
excitement flowed over the congregation. Sylvia rose and came forward to
Janet Moore's side at the organ. The next moment her beautiful voice soared
through the building like the very soul of melody--true, clear, powerful,
sweet. Nobody in Spencervale had ever listened to such a voice, except
Old Lady Lloyd herself, who, in her youth, had heard enough good singing
to enable her to be a tolerable judge of it. She realized instantly
that this girl of her heart had a great gift--a gift that would some
day bring her fame and fortune, if it could be duly trained and
developed.
"Oh, I'm so glad I came to church," thought Old Lady
Lloyd.
When the solo was ended, the Old Lady's conscience compelled her
to drag her eyes and thoughts from Sylvia, and fasten them on the
minister, who had been flattering himself all through the opening portion of
the service that Old Lady Lloyd had come to church on his account. He
was newly settled, having been in charge of the Spencervale
congregation only a few months; he was a clever little fellow and he honestly
thought it was the fame of his preaching that had brought Old Lady Lloyd out
to church.
When the service was over all the Old Lady's neighbours
came to speak to her, with kindly smile and handshake. They thought they
ought to encourage her, now that she had made a start in the right direction;
the Old Lady liked their cordiality, and liked it none the less because
she detected in it the same unconscious respect and deference she had
been wont to receive in the old days--a respect and deference which
her personality compelled from all who approached her. The Old Lady
was surprised to find that she could command it still, in defiance
of unfashionable bonnet and ancient attire.
Janet Moore and Sylvia
Gray walked home from church together. "Did you see Old Lady Lloyd out
to-day?" asked Janet. "I was amazed when she walked in. She has never been to
church in my recollection. What a quaint old figure she is! She's very rich,
you know, but she wears her mother's old clothes and never gets a new thing.
Some people think she is mean; but," concluded Janet charitably, "I believe
it is simply eccentricity."
"I felt that was Miss Lloyd as soon as I
saw her, although I had never seen her before," said Sylvia dreamily. "I have
been wishing to see her--for a certain reason. She has a very striking face.
I should like to meet her--to know her."
"I don't think it's likely
you ever will," said Janet carelessly. "She doesn't like young people and she
never goes anywhere. I don't think I'd like to know her. I'd be afraid of
her--she has such stately ways and such strange, piercing eyes."
"_I_
shouldn't be afraid of her," said Sylvia to herself, as she turned into the
Spencer lane. "But I don't expect I'll ever become acquainted with her. If
she knew who I am I suppose she would dislike me. I suppose she never
suspects that I am Leslie Gray's daughter."
The minister, thinking it
well to strike while the iron was hot, went up to call on Old Lady Lloyd the
very next afternoon. He went in fear and trembling, for he had heard things
about Old Lady Lloyd; but she made herself so agreeable in her high-bred
fashion that he was delighted, and told his wife when he went home that
Spencervale people didn't understand Miss Lloyd. This was perfectly true; but
it is by no means certain that the minister understood her either.
He
made only one mistake in tact, but, as the Old Lady did not snub him for it,
he never knew he made it. When he was leaving he said, "I hope we shall see
you at church next Sunday, Miss Lloyd."
"Indeed, you will," said the Old
Lady emphatically.
III. The July Chapter
The first day
of July Sylvia found a little birch bark boat full of strawberries at the
beech in the hollow. They were the earliest of the season; the Old Lady had
found them in one of her secret haunts. They would have been a toothsome
addition to the Old Lady's own slender bill of fare; but she never thought of
eating them. She got far more pleasure out of the thought of Sylvia's
enjoying them for her tea. Thereafter the strawberries alternated with the
flowers as long as they lasted, and then came blueberries and raspberries.
The blueberries grew far away and the Old Lady had many a tramp after them.
Sometimes her bones ached at night because of it; but what cared the Old Lady
for that? Bone ache is easier to endure than soul ache; and the Old Lady's
soul had stopped aching for the first time in many year. It was being
nourished with heavenly manna.
One evening Crooked Jack came up to fix
something that had gone wrong with the Old Lady's well. The Old Lady wandered
affably out to him; for she knew he had been working at the Spencers' all
day, and there might be crumbs of information about Sylvia to be picked
up.
"I reckon the music teacher's feeling pretty blue this evening,"
Crooked Jack remarked, after straining the Old Lady's patience to the last
verge of human endurance by expatiating on William Spencer's new pump,
and Mrs. Spencer's new washing-machine, and Amelia Spencer's new young
man.
"Why?" asked the Old Lady, turning very pale. Had anything happened
to Sylvia?
"Well, she's been invited to a big party at Mrs. Moore's
brother's in town, and she hasn't got a dress to go in," said Crooked Jack.
"They're great swells and everybody will be got up regardless. Mrs. Spencer
was telling me about it. She says Miss Gray can't afford a new dress
because she's helping to pay her aunt's doctor's bills. She says she's sure
Miss Gray feels awful disappointed over it, though she doesn't let on.
But Mrs. Spencer says she knows she was crying after she went to bed
last night."
The Old Lady turned and went into the house abruptly.
This was dreadful. Sylvia must go to that party--she MUST. But how was it to
be managed? Through the Old Lady's brain passed wild thoughts of her mother's
silk dresses. But none of them would be suitable, even if there were time
to make one over. Never had the Old Lady so bitterly regretted her
vanished wealth.
"I've only two dollars in the house," she said, "and
I've got to live on that till the next day the egg pedlar comes round. Is
there anything I can sell--ANYTHING? Yes, yes, the grape jug!"
Up to
this time, the Old Lady would as soon have thought of trying to sell her head
as the grape jug. The grape jug was two hundred years old and had been in the
Lloyd family ever since it was a jug at all. It was a big, pot-bellied
affair, festooned with pink-gilt grapes, and with a verse of poetry printed
on one side, and it had been given as a wedding present to the Old Lady's
great-grandmother. As long as the Old Lady could remember it had sat on the
top shelf in the cupboard in the sitting-room wall, far too precious ever to
be used.
Two years before, a woman who collected old china had
explored Spencervale, and, getting word of the grape jug, had boldly
invaded the old Lloyd place and offered to buy it. She never, to her dying
day, forgot the reception the Old Lady gave her; but, being wise in
her day and generation, she left her card, saying that if Miss Lloyd
ever changed her mind about selling the jug, she would find that she,
the aforesaid collector, had not changed hers about buying it. People
who make a hobby of heirloom china must meekly overlook snubs, and
this particular person had never seen anything she coveted so much as
that grape jug.
The Old Lady had torn the card to pieces; but she
remembered the name and address. She went to the cupboard and took down the
beloved jug.
"I never thought to part with it," she said wistfully, "but
Sylvia must have a dress, and there is no other way. And, after all, when I'm
gone, who would there be to have it? Strangers would get it then--it
might as well go to them now. I'll have to go to town to-morrow morning,
for there's no time to lose if the party is Friday night. I haven't been
to town for ten years. I dread the thought of going, more than parting
with the jug. But for Sylvia's sake!"
It was all over Spencervale by
the next morning that Old Lady Lloyd had gone to town, carrying a carefully
guarded box. Everybody wondered why she went; most people supposed she had
become too frightened to keep her money in a black box below her bed, when
there had been two burglaries over at Carmody, and had taken it to the
bank.
The Old Lady sought out the address of the china collector,
trembling with fear that she might be dead or gone. But the collector was
there, very much alive, and as keenly anxious to possess the grape jug as
ever. The Old Lady, pallid with the pain of her trampled pride, sold the
grape jug and went away, believing that her great-grandmother must have
turned over in her grave at the moment of the transaction. Old Lady Lloyd
felt like a traitor to her traditions.
But she went unflinchingly to a
big store and, guided by that special Providence which looks after
simple-minded old souls in their dangerous excursions into the world, found a
sympathetic clerk who knew just what she wanted and got it for her. The Old
Lady selected a very dainty muslin gown, with gloves and slippers in keeping;
and she ordered it sent at once, expressage prepaid, to Miss Sylvia Gray, in
care of William Spencer, Spencervale.
Then she paid down the
money--the whole price of the jug, minus a dollar and a half for railroad
fare--with a grand, careless air and departed. As she marched erectly down
the aisle of the store, she encountered a sleek, portly, prosperous man
coming in. As their eyes met, the man started and his bland face flushed
crimson; he lifted his hat and bowed confusedly. But the Old Lady looked
through him as if he wasn't there, and passed on with not a sign of
recognition about her. He took one step after her, then stopped and turned
away, with a rather disagreeable smile and a shrug of his
shoulders.
Nobody would have guessed, as the Old Lady swept out, how her
heart was seething with abhorrence and scorn. She would not have had the
courage to come to town, even for Sylvia's sake, if she had thought she
would meet Andrew Cameron. The mere sight of him opened up anew a
sealed fountain of bitterness in her soul; but the thought of Sylvia
somehow stemmed the torrent, and presently the Old Lady was smiling
rather triumphantly, thinking rightly that she had come off best in
that unwelcome encounter. SHE, at any rate, had not faltered and
coloured, and lost her presence of mind.
"It is little wonder HE did,"
thought the Old Lady vindictively. It pleased her that Andrew Cameron should
lose, before her, the front of adamant he presented to the world. He was her
cousin and the only living creature Old Lady Lloyd hated, and she hated and
despised him with all the intensity of her intense nature. She and hers had
sustained grievous wrong at his hands, and the Old Lady was convinced that
she would rather die than take any notice of his existence.
Presently,
she resolutely put Andrew Cameron out of her mind. It was desecration to
think of him and Sylvia together. When she laid her weary head on her pillow
that night she was so happy that even the thought of the vacant shelf in the
room below, where the grape jug had always been, gave her only a momentary
pang.
"It's sweet to sacrifice for one we love--it's sweet to have
someone to sacrifice for," thought the Old Lady.
Desire grows by what
it feeds on. The Old Lady thought she was content; but Friday evening came
and found her in a perfect fever to see Sylvia in her party dress. It was not
enough to fancy her in it; nothing would do the Old Lady but seeing
her.
"And I SHALL see her," said the Old Lady resolutely, looking out
from her window at Sylvia's light gleaming through the firs. She
wrapped herself in a dark shawl and crept out, slipping down to the hollow
and up the wood lane. It was a misty, moonlight night, and a wind,
fragrant with the aroma of clover fields, blew down the lane to meet
her.
"I wish I could take your perfume--the soul of you--and pour it into
her life," said the Old Lady aloud to that wind.
Sylvia Gray was
standing in her room, ready for the party. Before her stood Mrs. Spencer and
Amelia Spencer and all the little Spencer girls, in an admiring semi-circle.
There was another spectator. Outside, under the lilac bush, Old Lady Lloyd
was standing. She could see Sylvia plainly, in her dainty dress, with the
pale pink roses Old Lady Lloyd had left at the beech that day for her in her
hair. Pink as they were, they were not so pink as her cheeks, and her eyes
shone like stars. Amelia Spencer put up her hand to push back a rose that had
fallen a little out of place, and the Old Lady envied her
fiercely.
"That dress couldn't have fitted better if it had been made for
you," said Mrs. Spencer admiringly. "Ain't she lovely, Amelia? Who COULD
have sent it?"
"Oh, I feel sure that Mrs. Moore was the fairy
godmother," said Sylvia. "There is nobody else who would. It was dear of
her--she knew I wished so much to go to the party with Janet. I wish Aunty
could see me now." Sylvia gave a little sigh in spite of her joy. "There's
nobody else to care very much."
Ah, Sylvia, you were wrong! There was
somebody else--somebody who cared very much--an Old Lady, with eager,
devouring eyes, who was standing under the lilac bush and who presently stole
away through the moonlit orchard to the woods like a shadow, going home with
a vision of you in your girlish beauty to companion her through the watches
of that summer night.
IV. The August Chapter
One
day the minister's wife rushed in where Spencervale people had feared to
tread, went boldly to Old Lady Lloyd, and asked her if she wouldn't come to
their Sewing Circle, which met fortnightly on Saturday afternoons.
"We
are filling a box to send to our Trinidad missionary," said the minister's
wife, "and we should be so pleased to have you come, Miss Lloyd."
The
Old Lady was on the point of refusing rather haughtily. Not that she was
opposed to missions--or sewing circles either--quite the contrary, but she
knew that each member of the Circle was expected to pay ten cents a week for
the purpose of procuring sewing materials; and the poor Old Lady really did
not see how she could afford it. But a sudden thought checked her refusal
before it reached her lips.
"I suppose some of the young girls go to the
Circle?" she said craftily.
"Oh, they all go," said the minister's wife.
"Janet Moore and Miss Gray are our most enthusiastic members. It is very
lovely of Miss Gray to give her Saturday afternoons--the only ones she has
free from pupils--to our work. But she really has the sweetest
disposition."
"I'll join your Circle," said the Old Lady promptly. She
was determined she would do it, if she had to live on two meals a day to save
the necessary fee.
She went to the Sewing Circle at James Martin's the
next Saturday, and did the most beautiful hand sewing for them. She was so
expert at it that she didn't need to think about it at all, which was
rather fortunate, for all her thoughts were taken up with Sylvia, who sat
in the opposite corner with Janet Moore, her graceful hands busy with
a little boy's coarse gingham shirt. Nobody thought of introducing
Sylvia to Old Lady Lloyd, and the Old Lady was glad of it. She sewed
finely away, and listened with all her ears to the girlish chatter which
went on in the opposite corner. One thing she found out--Sylvia's
birthday was the twentieth of August. And the Old Lady was straightway fired
with a consuming wish to give Sylvia a birthday present. She lay
awake most of the night wondering if she could do it, and most
sorrowfully concluded that it was utterly out of the question, no matter how
she might pinch and contrive. Old Lady Lloyd worried quite absurdly
over this, and it haunted her like a spectre until the next Sewing
Circle day.
It met at Mrs. Moore's and Mrs. Moore was especially
gracious to Old Lady Lloyd, and insisted on her taking the wicker rocker in
the parlour. The Old Lady would rather have been in the sitting-room with the
young girls, but she submitted for courtesy's sake--and she had her
reward. Her chair was just behind the parlour door, and presently Janet
Moore and Sylvia Gray came and sat on the stairs in the hall outside, where
a cool breeze blew in through the maples before the front door.
They
were talking of their favourite poets. Janet, it appeared, adored Byron and
Scott. Sylvia leaned to Tennyson and Browning.
"Do you know," said Sylvia
softly, "my father was a poet? He published a little volume of verse once;
and, Janet, I've never seen a copy of it, and oh, how I would love to! It was
published when he was at college--just a small, private edition to give his
friends. He never published any more--poor father! I think life disappointed
him. But I have such a longing to see that little book of his verse. I
haven't a scrap of his writings. If I had it would seem as if I
possessed something of him--of his heart, his soul, his inner life. He would
be something more than a mere name to me."
"Didn't he have a copy of
his own--didn't your mother have one?" asked Janet.
"Mother hadn't.
She died when I was born, you know, but Aunty says there was no copy of
father's poems among mother's books. Mother didn't care for poetry, Aunty
says--Aunty doesn't either. Father went to Europe after mother died, and he
died there the next year. Nothing that he had with him was ever sent home to
us. He had sold most of his books before he went, but he gave a few of his
favourite ones to Aunty to keep for me. HIS book wasn't among them. I don't
suppose I shall ever find a copy, but I should be so delighted if I only
could."
When the Old Lady got home she took from her top bureau drawer an
inlaid box of sandalwood. It held a little, slim, limp volume, wrapped
in tissue paper--the Old Lady's most treasured possession. On the
fly-leaf was written, "To Margaret, with the author's love."
The Old
Lady turned the yellow leaves with trembling fingers and, through eyes
brimming with tears, read the verses, although she had known them all by
heart for years. She meant to give the book to Sylvia for a birthday
present--one of the most precious gifts ever given, if the value of gifts is
gauged by the measure of self-sacrifice involved. In that little book was
immortal love--old laughter--old tears--old beauty which had bloomed like a
rose years ago, holding still its sweetness like old rose leaves. She removed
the telltale fly-leaf; and late on the night before Sylvia's birthday, the
Old Lady crept, under cover of the darkness, through byways and across
fields, as if bent on some nefarious expedition, to the little Spencervale
store where the post-office was kept. She slipped the thin parcel through the
slit in the door, and then stole home again, feeling a strange sense of
loss and loneliness. It was as if she had given away the last link
between herself and her youth. But she did not regret it. It would give
Sylvia pleasure, and that had come to be the overmastering passion of the
Old Lady's heart.
The next night the light in Sylvia's room burned
very late, and the Old Lady watched it triumphantly, knowing the meaning of
it. Sylvia was reading her father's poems, and the Old Lady in her darkness
read them too, murmuring the lines over and over to herself. After all,
giving away the book had not mattered so very much. She had the soul of
it still--and the fly-leaf with the name, in Leslie's writing, by
which nobody ever called her now.
The Old Lady was sitting on the
Marshall sofa the next Sewing Circle afternoon when Sylvia Gray came and sat
down beside her. The Old Lady's hands trembled a little, and one side of a
handkerchief, which was afterwards given as a Christmas present to a little
olive-skinned coolie in Trinidad, was not quite so exquisitely done as the
other three sides.
Sylvia at first talked of the Circle, and Mrs.
Marshall's dahlias, and the Old Lady was in the seventh heaven of delight,
though she took care not to show it, and was even a little more stately and
finely mannered than usual. When she asked Sylvia how she liked living in
Spencervale, Sylvia said,
"Very much. Everybody is so kind to me.
Besides"--Sylvia lowered her voice so that nobody but the Old Lady could hear
it--"I have a fairy godmother here who does the most beautiful and wonderful
things for me."
Sylvia, being a girl of fine instincts, did not look at
Old Lady Lloyd as she said this. But she would not have seen anything if she
had looked. The Old Lady was not a Lloyd for nothing.
"How very
interesting," she said, indifferently.
"Isn't it? I am so grateful to her
and I have wished so much she might know how much pleasure she has given me.
I have found lovely flowers and delicious berries on my path all summer; I
feel sure she sent me my party dress. But the dearest gift came last week on
my birthday--a little volume of my father's poems. I can't express what I
felt on receiving them. But I longed to meet my fairy godmother and thank
her."
"Quite a fascinating mystery, isn't it? Have you really no idea who
she is?"
The Old Lady asked this dangerous question with marked
success. She would not have been so successful if she had not been so sure
that Sylvia had no idea of the old romance between her and Leslie Gray. As
it was, she had a comfortable conviction that she herself was the very
last person Sylvia would be likely to suspect.
Sylvia hesitated for an
almost unnoticeable moment. Then she said, "I haven't tried to find out,
because I don't think she wants me to know. At first, of course, in the
matter of the flowers and dress, I did try to solve the mystery; but, since I
received the book, I became convinced that it was my fairy godmother who was
doing it all, and I have respected her wish for concealment and always shall.
Perhaps some day she will reveal herself to me. I hope so, at
least."
"I wouldn't hope it," said the Old Lady discouragingly.
"Fairy godmothers--at least, in all the fairy tales I ever read--are
somewhat apt to be queer, crochety people, much more agreeable when wrapped
up in mystery than when met face to face."
"I'm convinced that mine is
the very opposite, and that the better I became acquainted with her, the more
charming a personage I should find her," said Sylvia gaily.
Mrs.
Marshall came up at this juncture and entreated Miss Gray to sing for them.
Miss Gray consenting sweetly, the Old Lady was left alone and was rather glad
of it. She enjoyed her conversation with Sylvia much more in thinking it over
after she got home than while it was taking place. When an Old Lady has a
guilty conscience, it is apt to make her nervous and distract her thoughts
from immediate pleasure. She wondered a little uneasily if Sylvia really did
suspect her. Then she concluded that it was out of the question. Who would
suspect a mean, unsociable Old Lady, who had no friends, and who gave only
five cents to the Sewing Circle when everyone else gave ten or fifteen, to be
a fairy godmother, the donor of beautiful party dresses, and the recipient of
gifts from romantic, aspiring young poets?
V. The September
Chapter
In September the Old Lady looked back on the summer and owned
to herself that it had been a strangely happy one, with Sundays and Sewing
Circle days standing out like golden punctuation marks in a poem of
life. She felt like an utterly different woman; and other people thought
her different also. The Sewing Circle women found her so pleasant, and
even friendly, that they began to think they had misjudged her, and
that perhaps it was eccentricity after all, and not meanness, which
accounted for her peculiar mode of living. Sylvia Gray always came and talked
to her on Circle afternoons now, and the Old Lady treasured every word
she said in her heart and repeated them over and over to her lonely self
in the watches of the night.
Sylvia never talked of herself or her
plans, unless asked about them; and the Old Lady's self-consciousness
prevented her from asking any personal questions: so their conversation kept
to the surface of things, and it was not from Sylvia, but from the minister's
wife that the Old Lady finally discovered what her darling's dearest ambition
was.
The minister's wife had dropped in at the old Lloyd place one
evening late in September, when a chilly wind was blowing up from the
northeast and moaning about the eaves of the house, as if the burden of
its lay were "harvest is ended and summer is gone." The Old Lady had
been listening to it, as she plaited a little basket of sweet grass
for Sylvia. She had walked all the way to Avonlea sand-hills for it
the day before, and she was very tired. And her heart was sad. This
summer, which had so enriched her life, was almost over; and she knew
that Sylvia Gray talked of leaving Spencervale at the end of October.
The Old Lady's heart felt like very lead within her at the thought,
and she almost welcomed the advent of the minister's wife as a
distraction, although she was desperately afraid that the minister's wife had
called to ask for a subscription for the new vestry carpet, and the Old
Lady simply could not afford to give one cent.
But the minister's wife
had merely dropped in on her way home from the Spencers' and she did not make
any embarrassing requests. Instead, she talked about Sylvia Gray, and her
words fell on the Old Lady's ears like separate pearl notes of unutterably
sweet music. The minister's wife had nothing but praise for Sylvia--she was
so sweet and beautiful and winning.
"And with SUCH a voice," said the
minister's wife enthusiastically, adding with a sigh, "It's such a shame she
can't have it properly trained. She would certainly become a great
singer--competent critics have told her so. But she is so poor she doesn't
think she can ever possibly manage it--unless she can get one of the Cameron
scholarships, as they are called; and she has very little hope of that,
although the professor of music who taught her has sent her name
in."
"What are the Cameron scholarships?" asked the Old
Lady.
"Well, I suppose you have heard of Andrew Cameron, the
millionaire?" said the minister's wife, serenely unconscious that she was
causing the very bones of the Old Lady's family skeleton to jangle in their
closet.
Into the Old Lady's white face came a sudden faint stain of
colour, as if a rough hand had struck her cheek.
"Yes, I've heard of
him," she said.
"Well, it seems that he had a daughter, who was a very
beautiful girl, and whom he idolized. She had a fine voice, and he was going
to send her abroad to have it trained. And she died. It nearly broke his
heart, I understand. But ever since, he sends one young girl away to Europe
every year for a thorough musical education under the best teachers--in
memory of his daughter. He has sent nine or ten already; but I fear there
isn't much chance for Sylvia Gray, and she doesn't think there is
herself."
"Why not?" asked the Old Lady spiritedly. "I am sure that there
can be few voices equal to Miss Gray's."
"Very true. But you see,
these so-called scholarships are private affairs, dependent solely on the
whim and choice of Andrew Cameron himself. Of course, when a girl has friends
who use their influence with him, he will often send her on their
recommendation. They say he sent a girl last year who hadn't much of a voice
at all just because her father had been an old business crony of his. But
Sylvia doesn't know anyone at all who would, to use a slang term, have any
'pull' with Andrew Cameron, and she is not acquainted with him herself. Well,
I must be going; we'll see you at the Manse on Saturday, I hope, Miss Lloyd.
The Circle meets there, you know."
"Yes, I know," said the Old Lady
absently. When the minister's wife had gone, she dropped her sweetgrass
basket and sat for a long, long time with her hands lying idly in her lap,
and her big black eyes staring unseeingly at the wall before her.
Old
Lady Lloyd, so pitifully poor that she had to eat six crackers the less a
week to pay her fee to the Sewing Circle, knew that it was in
her power--HERS--to send Leslie Gray's daughter to Europe for her
musical education! If she chose to use her "pull" with Andrew Cameron--if
she went to him and asked him to send Sylvia Gray abroad the
next year--she had no doubt whatever that it would be done. It all lay
with her--if--if--IF she could so far crush and conquer her pride as to
stoop to ask a favour of the man who had wronged her and hers so
bitterly.
Years ago, her father, acting under the advice and urgency of
Andrew Cameron, had invested all his little fortune in an enterprise that
had turned out a failure. Abraham Lloyd lost every dollar he possessed,
and his family were reduced to utter poverty. Andrew Cameron might have
been forgiven for a mistake; but there was a strong suspicion, amounting
to almost certainty, that he had been guilty of something far worse than a
mistake in regard to his uncle's investment. Nothing could be legally proved;
but it was certain that Andrew Cameron, already noted for his "sharp
practices," emerged with improved finances from an entanglement that had
ruined many better men; and old Doctor Lloyd had died brokenhearted,
believing that his nephew had deliberately victimized him.
Andrew
Cameron had not quite done this; he had meant well enough by his uncle at
first, and what he had finally done he tried to justify to himself by the
doctrine that a man must look out for Number One.
Margaret Lloyd made no
such excuses for him; she held him responsible, not only for her lost
fortune, but for her father's death, and never forgave him for it. When
Abraham Lloyd had died, Andrew Cameron, perhaps pricked by his conscience,
had come to her, sleekly and smoothly, to offer her financial aid. He would
see, he told her, that she never suffered want.
Margaret Lloyd flung
his offer back in his face after a fashion that left nothing to be desired in
the way of plain speaking. She would die, she told him passionately, before
she would accept a penny or a favour from him. He had preserved an unbroken
show of good temper, expressed his heartfelt regret that she should cherish
such an unjust opinion of him, and had left her with an oily assurance that
he would always be her friend, and would always be delighted to render her
any assistance in his power whenever she should choose to ask for
it.
The Old Lady had lived for twenty years in the firm conviction that
she would die in the poorhouse--as, indeed, seemed not unlikely--before
she would ask a favour of Andrew Cameron. And so, in truth, she would
have, had it been for herself. But for Sylvia! Could she so far humble
herself for Sylvia's sake?
The question was not easily or speedily
settled, as had been the case in the matters of the grape jug and the book of
poems. For a whole week the Old Lady fought her pride and bitterness.
Sometimes, in the hours of sleepless night, when all human resentments and
rancours seemed petty and contemptible, she thought she had conquered it. But
in the daytime, with the picture of her father looking down at her from the
wall, and the rustle of her unfashionable dresses, worn because of
Andrew Cameron's double dealing, in her ears, it got the better of her
again.
But the Old Lady's love for Sylvia had grown so strong and deep
and tender that no other feeling could endure finally against it. Love
is a great miracle worker; and never had its power been more strongly
made manifest than on the cold, dull autumn morning when the Old Lady
walked to Bright River railway station and took the train to
Charlottetown, bent on an errand the very thought of which turned her soul
sick within her. The station master who sold her her ticket thought Old Lady
Lloyd looked uncommonly white and peaked--"as if she hadn't slept a
wink or eaten a bite for a week," he told his wife at dinner time.
"Guess there's something wrong in her business affairs. This is the second
time she's gone to town this summer."
When the Old Lady reached the
town, she ate her slender little lunch and then walked out to the suburb
where the Cameron factories and warehouses were. It was a long walk for her,
but she could not afford to drive. She felt very tired when she was shown
into the shining, luxurious office where Andrew Cameron sat at his
desk.
After the first startled glance of surprise, he came forward
beamingly, with outstretched hand.
"Why, Cousin Margaret! This is a
pleasant surprise. Sit down--allow me, this is a much more comfortable chair.
Did you come in this morning? And how is everybody out in
Spencervale?"
The Old Lady had flushed at his first words. To hear the
name by which her father and mother and lover had called her on Andrew
Cameron's lips seemed like profanation. But, she told herself, the time was
past for squeamishness. If she could ask a favour of Andrew Cameron, she
could bear lesser pangs. For Sylvia's sake she shook hands with him,
for Sylvia's sake she sat down in the chair he offered. But for no
living human being's sake could this determined Old Lady infuse any
cordiality into her manner or her words. She went straight to the point with
Lloyd simplicity.
"I have come to ask a favour of you," she said,
looking him in the eye, not at all humbly or meekly, as became a suppliant,
but challengingly and defiantly, as if she dared him to
refuse.
"DE-lighted to hear it, Cousin Margaret." Never was anything so
bland and gracious as his tone. "Anything I can do for you I shall be
only too pleased to do. I am afraid you have looked upon me as an
enemy, Margaret, and I assure you I have felt your injustice keenly. I
realize that some appearances were against me, but--"
The Old Lady
lifted her hand and stemmed his eloquence by that one gesture.
"I did
not come here to discuss that matter," she said. "We will not refer to the
past, if you please. I came to ask a favour, not for myself, but for a very
dear young friend of mine--a Miss Gray, who has a remarkably fine voice which
she wishes to have trained. She is poor, so I came to ask you if you would
give her one of your musical scholarships. I understand her name has already
been suggested to you, with a recommendation from her teacher. I do not know
what he has said of her voice, but I do know he could hardly overrate it. If
you send her abroad for training, you will not make any mistake."
The
Old Lady stopped talking. She felt sure Andrew Cameron would grant her
request, but she did hope he would grant it rather rudely or unwillingly. She
could accept the favour so much more easily if it were flung to her like a
bone to a dog. But not a bit of it. Andrew Cameron was suaver than ever.
Nothing could give him greater pleasure than to grant his dear Cousin
Margaret's request--he only wished it involved more trouble on his part. Her
little protege should have her musical education assuredly--she should go
abroad next year--and he was DE-lighted--
"Thank you," said the Old
Lady, cutting him short again. "I am much obliged to you--and I ask you not
to let Miss Gray know anything of my interference. And I shall not take up
any more of your valuable time. Good afternoon."
"Oh, you mustn't go
so soon," he said, with some real kindness or clannishness permeating the
hateful cordiality of his voice--for Andrew Cameron was not entirely without
the homely virtues of the average man. He had been a good husband and father;
he had once been very fond of his Cousin Margaret; and he was really very
sorry that "circumstances" had "compelled" him to act as he had done in that
old affair of her father's investment. "You must be my guest
to-night."
"Thank you. I must return home to-night," said the Old Lady
firmly, and there was that in her tone which told Andrew Cameron that it
would be useless to urge her. But he insisted on telephoning for his carriage
to drive her to the station. The Old Lady submitted to this, because
she was secretly afraid her own legs would not suffice to carry her
there; she even shook hands with him at parting, and thanked him a second
time for granting her request.
"Not at all," he said. "Please try to
think a little more kindly of me, Cousin Margaret."
When the Old Lady
reached the station she found, to her dismay, that her train had just gone
and that she would have to wait two hours for the evening one. She went into
the waiting-room and sat down. She was very tired. All the excitement that
had sustained her was gone, and she felt weak and old. She had nothing to
eat, having expected to get home in time for tea; the waiting-room was
chilly, and she shivered in her thin, old, silk mantilla. Her head ached and
her heart likewise. She had won Sylvia's desire for her; but Sylvia would go
out of her life, and the Old Lady did not see how she was to go on living
after that. Yet she sat there unflinchingly for two hours, an upright,
indomitable old figure, silently fighting her losing battle with the forces
of physical and mental pain, while happy people came and went, and laughed
and talked before her.
At eight o'clock the Old Lady got off the train
at Bright River station, and slipped off unnoticed into the darkness of the
wet night. She had two miles to walk, and a cold rain was falling. Soon the
Old Lady was wet to the skin and chilled to the marrow. She felt as if she
were walking in a bad dream. Blind instinct alone guided her over the
last mile and up the lane to her own house. As she fumbled at her
door, she realized that a burning heat had suddenly taken the place of
her chilliness. She stumbled in over her threshold and closed the
door.
VI. The October Chapter
On the second morning
after Old Lady Lloyd's journey to town, Sylvia Gray was walking blithely down
the wood lane. It was a beautiful autumn morning, clear and crisp and sunny;
the frosted ferns, drenched and battered with the rain of yesterday, gave out
a delicious fragrance; here and there in the woods a maple waved a gay
crimson banner, or a branch of birch showed pale golden against the dark,
unchanging spruces. The air was very pure and exhilarating. Sylvia walked
with a joyous lightness of step and uplift of brow.
At the beech in
the hollow she paused for an expectant moment, but there was nothing among
the gray old roots for her. She was just turning away when little Teddy
Kimball, who lived next door to the manse, came running down the slope from
the direction of the old Lloyd place. Teddy's freckled face was very
pale.
"Oh, Miss Gray!" he gasped. "I guess Old Lady Lloyd has gone clean
crazy at last. The minister's wife asked me to run up to the Old Lady, with
a message about the Sewing Circle--and I knocked--and knocked--and
nobody came--so I thought I'd just step in and leave the letter on
the table. But when I opened the door, I heard an awful queer laugh in
the sitting-room, and next minute, the Old Lady came to the
sitting-room door. Oh, Miss Gray, she looked awful. Her face was red and her
eyes awful wild--and she was muttering and talking to herself and
laughing like mad. I was so scared I just turned and run."
Sylvia,
without stopping for reflection, caught Teddy's hand and ran up the slope. It
did not occur to her to be frightened, although she thought with Teddy that
the poor, lonely, eccentric Old Lady had really gone out of her mind at last. |
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