The Old Lady was sitting on the kitchen sofa when Sylvia entered.
Teddy, too frightened to go in, lurked on the step outside. The Old Lady
still wore the damp black silk dress in which she had walked from the
station. Her face was flushed, her eyes wild, her voice hoarse. But she
knew Sylvia and cowered down.
"Don't look at me," she moaned. "Please
go away--I can't bear that YOU should know how poor I am. You're to go to
Europe--Andrew Cameron is going to send you--I asked him--he couldn't refuse
ME. But please go away."
Sylvia did not go away. At a glance she had
seen that this was sickness and delirium, not insanity. She sent Teddy off in
hot haste for Mrs. Spencer and when Mrs. Spencer came they induced the Old
Lady to go to bed, and sent for the doctor. By night everybody in Spencervale
knew that Old Lady Lloyd had pneumonia.
Mrs. Spencer announced that
she meant to stay and nurse the Old Lady. Several other women offered
assistance. Everybody was kind and thoughtful. But the Old Lady did not know
it. She did not even know Sylvia Gray, who came and sat by her every minute
she could spare. Sylvia Gray now knew all that she had suspected--the Old
Lady was her fairy godmother. The Old Lady babbled of Sylvia incessantly,
revealing all her love for her, betraying all the sacrifices she had
made. Sylvia's heart ached with love and tenderness, and she prayed
earnestly that the Old Lady might recover.
"I want her to know that I
give her love for love," she murmured.
Everybody knew now how poor the
Old Lady really was. She let slip all the jealously guarded secrets of her
existence, except her old love for Leslie Gray. Even in delirium something
sealed her lips as to that. But all else came out--her anguish over her
unfashionable attire, her pitiful makeshifts and contrivances, her
humiliation over wearing unfashionable dresses and paying only five cents
where every other Sewing Circle member paid ten. The kindly women who waited
on her listened to her with tear-filled eyes, and repented of their
harsh judgments in the past.
"But who would have thought it?" said
Mrs. Spencer to the minister's wife. "Nobody ever dreamed that her father had
lost ALL his money, though folks supposed he had lost some in that old affair
of the silver mine out west. It's shocking to think of the way she has lived
all these years, often with not enough to eat--and going to bed in winter
days to save fuel. Though I suppose if we had known we couldn't have done
much for her, she's so desperate proud. But if she lives, and will let
us help her, things will be different after this. Crooked Jack says
he'll never forgive himself for taking pay for the few little jobs he did
for her. He says, if she'll only let him, he'll do everything she wants
done for her after this for nothing. Ain't it strange what a fancy she's
took to Miss Gray? Think of her doing all those things for her all
summer, and selling the grape jug and all. Well, the Old Lady certainly
isn't mean, but nobody made a mistake in calling her queer. It all does
seem desperate pitiful. Miss Gray's taking it awful hard. She seems to
think about as much of the Old Lady as the Old Lady thinks of her. She's
so worked up she don't even seem to care about going to Europe next
year. She's really going--she's had word from Andrew Cameron. I'm awful
glad, for there never was a sweeter girl in the world; but she says it
will cost too much if the Old Lady's life is to pay for it."
Andrew
Cameron heard of the Old Lady's illness and came out to Spencervale himself.
He was not allowed to see the Old Lady, of course; but he told all concerned
that no expense or trouble was to be spared, and the Spencervale doctor was
instructed to send his bill to Andrew Cameron and hold his peace about it.
Moreover, when Andrew Cameron went back home, he sent a trained nurse out to
wait on the Old Lady, a capable, kindly woman who contrived to take charge of
the case without offending Mrs. Spencer--than which no higher tribute could
be paid to her tact!
The Old Lady did not die--the Lloyd constitution
brought her through. One day, when Sylvia came in, the Old Lady smiled up at
her, with a weak, faint, sensible smile, and murmured her name, and the nurse
said that the crisis was past.
The Old Lady made a marvellously
patient and tractable invalid. She did just as she was told, and accepted the
presence of the nurse as a matter of course.
But one day, when she was
strong enough to talk a little, she said to Sylvia,
"I suppose Andrew
Cameron sent Miss Hayes here, did he?" "Yes," said Sylvia, rather
timidly.
The Old Lady noticed the timidity and smiled, with something of
her old humour and spirit in her black eyes.
"Time has been when I'd
have packed off unceremoniously any person Andrew Cameron sent here," she
said. "But, Sylvia, I have gone through the Valley of the Shadow of Death,
and I have left pride and resentment behind me for ever, I hope. I no longer
feel as I felt towards Andrew. I can even accept a personal favour from him
now. At last I can forgive him for the wrong he did me and mine. Sylvia, I
find that I have been letting no ends of cats out of bags in my illness.
Everybody knows now how poor I am--but I don't seem to mind it a bit. I'm
only sorry that I ever shut my neighbours out of my life because of my
foolish pride. Everyone has been so kind to me, Sylvia. In the future, if my
life is spared, it is going to be a very different sort of life. I'm going
to open it to all the kindness and companionship I can find in young
and old. I'm going to help them all I can and let them help me. I CAN
help people--I've learned that money isn't the only power for helping
people. Anyone who has sympathy and understanding to give has a treasure that
is without money and without price. And oh, Sylvia, you've found out what
I never meant you to know. But I don't mind that now, either."
Sylvia
took the Old Lady's thin white hand and kissed it.
"I can never thank you
enough for what you have done for me, dearest Miss Lloyd," she said
earnestly. "And I am so glad that all mystery is done away with between us,
and I can love you as much and as openly as I have longed to do. I am so glad
and so thankful that you love me, dear fairy godmother."
"Do you know
WHY I love you so?" said the Old Lady wistfully. "Did I let THAT out in my
raving, too?"
"No, but I think I know. It is because I am Leslie Gray's
daughter, isn't it? I know that father loved you--his brother, Uncle Willis,
told me all about it."
"I spoiled my own life because of my wicked
pride," said the Old Lady sadly. "But you will love me in spite of it all,
won't you, Sylvia? And you will come to see me sometimes? And write me after
you go away?"
"I am coming to see you every day," said Sylvia. "I am
going to stay in Spencervale for a whole year yet, just to be near you. And
next year when I go to Europe--thanks to you, fairy godmother--I'll write
you every day. We are going to be the best of chums, and we are going
to have a most beautiful year of comradeship!"
The Old Lady smiled
contentedly. Out in the kitchen, the minister's wife, who had brought up a
dish of jelly, was talking to Mrs. Spencer about the Sewing Circle. Through
the open window, where the red vines hung, came the pungent, sun-warm October
air. The sunshine fell over Sylvia's chestnut hair like a crown of glory and
youth.
"I do feel so perfectly happy," said the Old Lady, with a
long, rapturous breath.
III. Each In His Own
Tongue
The honey-tinted autumn sunshine was falling thickly over the
crimson and amber maples around old Abel Blair's door. There was only one
outer door in old Abel's house, and it almost always stood wide open. A
little black dog, with one ear missing and a lame forepaw, almost always
slept on the worn red sandstone slab which served old Abel for a
doorstep; and on the still more worn sill above it a large gray cat almost
always slept. Just inside the door, on a bandy-legged chair of elder days,
old Abel almost always sat.
He was sitting there this afternoon--a
little old man, sadly twisted with rheumatism; his head was abnormally large,
thatched with long, wiry black hair; his face was heavily lined and swarthily
sunburned; his eyes were deep-set and black, with occasional peculiar golden
flashes in them. A strange looking man was old Abel Blair; and as strange was
he as he looked. Lower Carmody people would have told you.
Old Abel
was almost always sober in these, his later years. He was sober to-day. He
liked to bask in that ripe sunlight as well as his dog and cat did; and in
such baskings he almost always looked out of his doorway at the far, fine
blue sky over the tops of the crowding maples. But to-day he was not looking
at the sky, instead, he was staring at the black, dusty rafters of his
kitchen, where hung dried meats and strings of onions and bunches of herbs
and fishing tackle and guns and skins.
But old Abel saw not these things;
his face was the face of a man who beholds visions, compact of heavenly
pleasure and hellish pain, for old Abel was seeing what he might have
been--and what he was; as he always saw when Felix Moore played to him on the
violin. And the awful joy of dreaming that he was young again, with unspoiled
life before him, was so great and compelling that it counterbalanced the
agony in the realization of a dishonoured old age, following years in which
he had squandered the wealth of his soul in ways where Wisdom lifted not
her voice.
Felix Moore was standing opposite to him, before an untidy
stove, where the noon fire had died down into pallid, scattered ashes. Under
his chin he held old Abel's brown, battered fiddle; his eyes, too, were
fixed on the ceiling; and he, too, saw things not lawful to be uttered in
any language save that of music; and of all music, only that given forth
by the anguished, enraptured spirit of the violin. And yet this Felix
was little more than twelve years old, and his face was still the face of
a child who knows nothing of either sorrow or sin or failure or
remorse. Only in his large, gray-black eyes was there something not of
the child--something that spoke of an inheritance from many hearts,
now ashes, which had aforetime grieved and joyed, and struggled and
failed, and succeeded and grovelled. The inarticulate cries of their
longings had passed into this child's soul, and transmuted themselves into
the expression of his music.
Felix was a beautiful child. Carmody
people, who stayed at home, thought so; and old Abel Blair, who had roamed
afar in many lands, thought so; and even the Rev. Stephen Leonard, who
taught, and tried to believe, that favour is deceitful and beauty is vain,
thought so.
He was a slight lad, with sloping shoulders, a slim brown
neck, and a head set on it with stag-like grace and uplift. His hair, cut
straight across his brow and falling over his ears, after some caprice of
Janet Andrews, the minister's housekeeper, was a glossy blue-black.
The skin of his face and hands was like ivory; his eyes were large
and beautifully tinted--gray, with dilating pupils; his features had
the outlines of a cameo. Carmody mothers considered him delicate, and
had long foretold that the minister would never bring him up; but old
Abel pulled his grizzled moustache when he heard such forebodings and
smiled.
"Felix Moore will live," he said positively. "You can't kill that
kind until their work is done. He's got a work to do--if the minister'll
let him do it. And if the minister don't let him do it, then I wouldn't
be in that minister's shoes when he comes to the judgment--no, I'd
rather be in my own. It's an awful thing to cross the purposes of the
Almighty, either in your own life or anybody else's. Sometimes I think it's
what's meant by the unpardonable sin--ay, that I do!"
Carmody people
never asked what old Abel meant. They had long ago given up such vain
questioning. When a man had lived as old Abel had lived for the greater part
of his life, was it any wonder he said crazy things? And as for hinting that
Mr. Leonard, a man who was really almost too good to live, was guilty of any
sin, much less an unpardonable one--well, there now! what use was it to be
taking any account of old Abel's queer speeches? Though, to be sure, there
was no great harm in a fiddle, and maybe Mr. Leonard was a mite too strict
that way with the child. But then, could you wonder at it? There was his
father, you see.
Felix finally lowered the violin, and came back to old
Abel's kitchen with a long sigh. Old Abel smiled drearily at him--the smile
of a man who has been in the hands of the tormentors.
"It's awful the
way you play--it's awful," he said with a shudder. "I never heard anything
like it--and you that never had any teaching since you were nine years old,
and not much practice, except what you could get here now and then on my old,
battered fiddle. And to think you make it up yourself as you go along! I
suppose your grandfather would never hear to your studying music--would he
now?"
Felix shook his head.
"I know he wouldn't, Abel. He wants me
to be a minister. Ministers are good things to be, but I'm afraid I can't be
a minister."
"Not a pulpit minister. There's different kinds of
ministers, and each must talk to men in his own tongue if he's going to do
'em any real good," said old Abel meditatively. "YOUR tongue is music.
Strange that your grandfather can't see that for himself, and him such a
broad-minded man! He's the only minister I ever had much use for. He's God's
own if ever a man was. And he loves you--yes, sir, he loves you like the
apple of his eye."
"And I love him," said Felix warmly. "I love him so
much that I'll even try to be a minister for his sake, though I don't want to
be."
"What do you want to be?"
"A great violinist," answered the
child, his ivory-hued face suddenly warming into living rose. "I want to play
to thousands--and see their eyes look as yours do when I play. Sometimes your
eyes frighten me, but oh, it's a splendid fright! If I had father's violin I
could do better. I remember that he once said it had a soul that was doing
purgatory for its sins when it had lived on earth. I don't know what he
meant, but it did seem to me that HIS violin was alive. He taught me to play
on it as soon as I was big enough to hold it."
"Did you love your
father?" asked old Abel, with a keen look.
Again Felix crimsoned; but he
looked straightly and steadily into his old friend's face.
"No," he
said, "I didn't; but," he added, gravely and deliberately, "I don't think you
should have asked me such a question."
It was old Abel's turn to blush.
Carmody people would not have believed he could blush; and perhaps no living
being could have called that deepening hue into his weather-beaten cheek save
only this gray-eyed child of the rebuking face.
"No, I guess I
shouldn't," he said. "But I'm always making mistakes. I've never made
anything else. That's why I'm nothing more than 'Old Abel' to the Carmody
people. Nobody but you and your grandfather ever calls me 'Mr. Blair.' Yet
William Blair at the store up there, rich and respected as he is, wasn't half
as clever a man as I was when we started in life: you mayn't believe that,
but it's true. And the worst of it is, young Felix, that most of the time I
don't care whether I'm Mr. Blair or old Abel. Only when you play I care. It
makes me feel just as a look I saw in a little girl's eyes some years ago
made me feel. Her name was Anne Shirley and she lived with the Cuthberts down
at Avonlea. We got into a conversation at Blair's store. She could talk a
blue streak to anyone, that girl could. I happened to say about something
that it didn't matter to a battered old hulk of sixty odd like me. She
looked at me with her big, innocent eyes, a little reproachful like, as if
I'd said something awful heretical. 'Don't you think, Mr. Blair,' she
says, 'that the older we get the more things ought to matter to us?'--as
grave as if she'd been a hundred instead of eleven. 'Things matter SO much
to me now,' she says, clasping her hands thisaway, 'and I'm sure that
when I'm sixty they'll matter just five times as much to me.' Well,
the way she looked and the way she spoke made me feel downright ashamed
of myself because things had stopped mattering with me. But never mind
all that. My miserable old feelings don't count for much. What come of
your father's fiddle?"
"Grandfather took it away when I came here. I
think he burned it. And I long for it so often."
"Well, you've always
got my old brown fiddle to come to when you must."
"Yes, I know. And I'm
glad for that. But I'm hungry for a violin all the time. And I only come here
when the hunger gets too much to bear. I feel as if I oughtn't to come even
then--I'm always saying I won't do it again, because I know grandfather
wouldn't like it, if he knew."
"He has never forbidden it, has
he?"
"No, but that is because he doesn't know I come here for that. He
never thinks of such a thing. I feel sure he WOULD forbid it, if he knew.
And that makes me very wretched. And yet I HAVE to come. Mr. Blair, do
you know why grandfather can't bear to have me play on the violin? He
loves music, and he doesn't mind my playing on the organ, if I don't
neglect other things. I can't understand it, can you?"
"I have a
pretty good idea, but I can't tell you. It isn't my secret. Maybe he'll tell
you himself some day. But, mark you, young Felix, he has got good reasons for
it all. Knowing what I know, I can't blame him over much, though I think he's
mistaken. Come now, play something more for me before you go--something
that's bright and happy this time, so as to leave me with a good taste in my
mouth. That last thing you played took me straight to heaven,--but heaven's
awful near to hell, and at the last you tipped me in."
"I don't
understand you," said Felix, drawing his fine, narrow black brows together in
a perplexed frown.
"No--and I wouldn't want you to. You couldn't
understand unless you was an old man who had it in him once to do something
and be a MAN, and just went and made himself a devilish fool. But there must
be something in you that understands things--all kinds of things--or you
couldn't put it all into music the way you do. How do you do it? How in--how
DO you do it, young Felix?"
"I don't know. But I play differently to
different people. I don't know how that is. When I'm alone with you I have to
play one way; and when Janet comes over here to listen I feel quite another
way--not so thrilling, but happier and lonelier. And that day when Jessie
Blair was here listening I felt as if I wanted to laugh and sing--as if the
violin wanted to laugh and sing all the time."
The strange, golden
gleam flashed through old Abel's sunken eyes.
"God," he muttered under
his breath, "I believe the boy can get into other folk's souls somehow, and
play out what HIS soul sees there."
"What's that you say?" inquired
Felix, petting his fiddle.
"Nothing--never mind--go on. Something lively
now, young Felix. Stop probing into my soul, where you haven't no business to
be, you infant, and play me something out of your own--something sweet and
happy and pure."
"I'll play the way I feel on sunshiny mornings, when
the birds are singing and I forget I have to be a minister," said Felix
simply.
A witching, gurgling, mirthful strain, like mingled bird
and brook song, floated out on the still air, along the path where the red
and golden maple leaves were falling very softly, one by one. The Reverend
Stephen Leonard heard it, as he came along the way, and the Reverend
Stephen Leonard smiled. Now, when Stephen Leonard smiled, children ran to
him, and grown people felt as if they looked from Pisgah over to some
fair land of promise beyond the fret and worry of their care-dimmed
earthly lives.
Mr. Leonard loved music, as he loved all things
beautiful, whether in the material or the spiritual world, though he did not
realize how much he loved them for their beauty alone, or he would have been
shocked and remorseful. He himself was beautiful. His figure was erect and
youthful, despite seventy years. His face was as mobile and charming as a
woman's, yet with all a man's tried strength and firmness in it, and his
dark blue eyes flashed with the brilliance of one and twenty; even his
silken silvery hair could not make an old man of him. He was worshipped
by everyone who knew him, and he was, in so far as mortal man may
be, worthy of that worship.
"Old Abel is amusing himself with his
violin again," he thought. "What a delicious thing he is playing! He has
quite a gift for the violin. But how can he play such a thing as that,--a
battered old hulk of a man who has, at one time or another, wallowed in
almost every sin to which human nature can sink? He was on one of his sprees
three days ago--the first one for over a year--lying dead-drunk in the market
square in Charlottetown among the dogs; and now he is playing something that
only a young archangel on the hills of heaven ought to be able to play.
Well, it will make my task all the easier. Abel is always repentant by
the time he is able to play on his fiddle."
Mr. Leonard was on the
door-stone. The little black dog had frisked down to meet him, and the gray
cat rubbed her head against his leg. Old Abel did not notice him; he was
beating time with uplifted hand and smiling face to Felix's music, and his
eyes were young again, glowing with laughter and sheer
happiness.
"Felix! what does this mean?"
The violin bow clattered
from Felix's hand upon the floor; he swung around and faced his grandfather.
As he met the passion of grief and hurt in the old man's eyes, his own
clouded with an agony of repentance.
"Grandfather--I'm sorry," he cried
brokenly.
"Now, now!" Old Abel had risen deprecatingly. "It's all my
fault, Mr. Leonard. Don't you blame the boy. I coaxed him to play a bit for
me. I didn't feel fit to touch the fiddle yet myself--too soon after
Friday, you see. So I coaxed him on--wouldn't give him no peace till he
played. It's all my fault."
"No," said Felix, throwing back his head.
His face was as white as marble, yet it seemed ablaze with desperate truth
and scorn of old Abel's shielding lie. "No, grandfather, it isn't Abel's
fault. I came over here on purpose to play, because I thought you had gone to
the harbour. I have come here often, ever since I have lived with
you."
"Ever since you have lived with me you have been deceiving me like
this, Felix?"
There was no anger in Mr. Leonard's tone--only
measureless sorrow. The boy's sensitive lips quivered.
"Forgive me,
grandfather," he whispered beseechingly.
"You never forbid him to come,"
old Abel broke in angrily. "Be just, Mr. Leonard--be just."
"I AM
just. Felix knows that he has disobeyed me, in the spirit if not in the
letter. Do you not know it, Felix?"
"Yes, grandfather, I have done
wrong--I've known that I was doing wrong every time I came. Forgive me,
grandfather."
"Felix, I forgive you, but I ask you to promise me, here
and now, that you will never again, as long as you live, touch a violin."
Dusky crimson rushed madly over the boy's face. He gave a cry as if he
had been lashed with a whip. Old Abel sprang to his feet.
"Don't you
ask such a promise of him, Mr. Leonard," he cried furiously. "It's a sin,
that's what it is. Man, man, what blinds you? You ARE blind. Can't you see
what is in the boy? His soul is full of music. It'll torture him to death--or
to worse--if you don't let it have way."
"There is a devil in such
music," said Mr. Leonard hotly.
"Ay, there may be, but don't forget that
there's a Christ in it, too," retorted old Abel in a low tense
tone.
Mr. Leonard looked shocked; he considered that old Abel had
uttered blasphemy. He turned away from him rebukingly.
"Felix, promise
me."
There was no relenting in his face or tone. He was merciless in
the use of the power he possessed over that young, loving spirit.
Felix understood that there was no escape; but his lips were very white as
he said,
"I promise, grandfather."
Mr. Leonard drew a long
breath of relief. He knew that promise would be kept. So did old Abel. The
latter crossed the floor and sullenly took the violin from Felix's relaxed
hand. Without a word or look he went into the little bedroom off the kitchen
and shut the door with a slam of righteous indignation. But from its window
he stealthily watched his visitors go away. Just as they entered on the maple
path Mr. Leonard laid his hand on Felix's head and looked down at him.
Instantly the boy flung his arm up over the old man's shoulder and smiled at
him. In the look they exchanged there was boundless love and trust--ay,
and good-fellowship. Old Abel's scornful eyes again held the golden
flash.
"How those two love each other!" he muttered enviously. "And how
they torture each other!"
Mr. Leonard went to his study to
pray when he got home. He knew that Felix had run for comforting to Janet
Andrews, the little, thin, sweet-faced, rigid-lipped woman who kept house for
them. Mr. Leonard knew that Janet would disapprove of his action as deeply as
old Abel had done. She would say nothing, she would only look at him with
reproachful eyes over the teacups at suppertime. But Mr. Leonard believed he
had done what was best and his conscience did not trouble him, though
his heart did.
Thirteen years before this, his daughter Margaret had
almost broken that heart by marrying a man of whom he could not approve.
Martin Moore was a professional violinist. He was a popular performer, though
not in any sense a great one. He met the slim, golden-haired daughter of the
manse at the house of a college friend she was visiting in Toronto,
and fell straightway in love with her. Margaret had loved him with all her
virginal heart in return, and married him, despite her father's disapproval.
It was not to Martin Moore's profession that Mr. Leonard objected, but to the
man himself. He knew that the violinist's past life had not been such as
became a suitor for Margaret Leonard; and his insight into character warned
him that Martin Moore could never make any woman lastingly
happy.
Margaret Leonard did not believe this. She married Martin Moore
and lived one year in paradise. Perhaps that atoned for the three
bitter years which followed--that, and her child. At all events, she died
as she had lived, loyal and uncomplaining. She died alone, for her
husband was away on a concert tour, and her illness was so brief that her
father had not time to reach her before the end. Her body was taken home to
be buried beside her mother in the little Carmody churchyard. Mr.
Leonard wished to take the child, but Martin Moore refused to give him
up.
Six years later Moore, too, died, and at last Mr. Leonard had
his heart's desire--the possession of Margaret's son. The
grandfather awaited the child's coming with mingled feelings. His heart
yearned for him, yet he dreaded to meet a second edition of Martin Moore.
Suppose Margaret's son resembled his handsome vagabond of a father! Or,
worse still, suppose he were cursed with his father's lack of principle,
his instability, his Bohemian instincts. Thus Mr. Leonard tortured
himself wretchedly before the coming of Felix.
The child did not look
like either father or mother. Instead, Mr. Leonard found himself looking into
a face which he had put away under the grasses thirty years before--the face
of his girl bride, who had died at Margaret's birth. Here again were her
lustrous gray-black eyes, her ivory outlines, her fine-traced arch of brow;
and here, looking out of those eyes, seemed her very spirit again. From that
moment the soul of the old man was knit to the soul of the child, and they
loved each other with a love surpassing that of women.
Felix's only
inheritance from his father was his love of music. But the child had genius,
where his father had possessed only talent. To Martin Moore's outward mastery
of the violin was added the mystery and intensity of his mother's nature,
with some more subtle quality still, which had perhaps come to him from the
grandmother he so strongly resembled. Moore had understood what a career was
naturally before the child, and he had trained him in the technique of his
art from the time the slight fingers could first grasp the bow. When
nine-year-old Felix came to the Carmody manse, he had mastered as much of the
science of the violin as nine out of ten musicians acquire in a lifetime; and
he brought with him his father's violin; it was all Martin Moore had
to leave his son--but it was an Amati, the commercial value of which
nobody in Carmody suspected. Mr. Leonard had taken possession of it and
Felix had never seen it since. He cried himself to sleep many a night
for the loss of it. Mr. Leonard did not know this, and if Janet
Andrews suspected it she held her tongue--an art in which she excelled. She
"saw no harm in a fiddle," herself, and thought Mr. Leonard absurdly
strict in the matter, though it would not have been well for the
luckless outsider who might have ventured to say as much to her. She had
connived at Felix's visits to old Abel Blair, squaring the matter with
her Presbyterian conscience by some peculiar process known only to
herself.
When Janet heard of the promise which Mr. Leonard had exacted
from Felix she seethed with indignation; and, though she "knew her place"
better than to say anything to Mr. Leonard about it, she made her
disapproval so plainly manifest in her bearing that the stern, gentle old man
found the atmosphere of his hitherto peaceful manse unpleasantly chill
and hostile for a time.
It was the wish of his heart that Felix should
be a minister, as he would have wished his own son to be, had one been born
to him. Mr. Leonard thought rightly that the highest work to which any man
could be called was a life of service to his fellows; but he made the mistake
of supposing the field of service much narrower than it is--of failing
to see that a man may minister to the needs of humanity in many
different but equally effective ways.
Janet hoped that Mr.
Leonard might not exact the fulfilment of Felix's promise; but Felix himself,
with the instinctive understanding of perfect love, knew that it was vain to
hope for any change of viewpoint in his grandfather. He addressed himself to
the keeping of his promise in letter and in spirit. He never went again to
old Abel's; he did not even play on the organ, though this was not forbidden,
because any music wakened in him a passion of longing and ecstasy which
demanded expression with an intensity not to be borne. He flung himself
grimly into his studies and conned Latin and Greek verbs with a
persistency which soon placed him at the head of all competitors.
Only
once in the long winter did he come near to breaking his promise. One
evening, when March was melting into April, and the pulses of spring were
stirring under the lingering snow, he was walking home from school alone. As
he descended into the little hollow below the manse a lively lilt of music
drifted up to meet him. It was only the product of a mouth-organ, manipulated
by a little black-eyed, French-Canadian hired boy, sitting on the fence by
the brook; but there was music in the ragged urchin and it came out through
his simple toy. It tingled over Felix from head to foot; and, when Leon held
out the mouth-organ with a fraternal grin of invitation, he snatched at it as
a famished creature might snatch at food.
Then, with it half-way to
his lips, he paused. True, it was only the violin he had promised never to
touch; but he felt that if he gave way ever so little to the desire that was
in him, it would sweep everything before it. If he played on Leon Buote's
mouth-organ, there in that misty spring dale, he would go to old Abel's that
evening; he KNEW he would go. To Leon's amazement, Felix threw the
mouth-organ back at him and ran up the hill as if he were pursued. There was
something in his boyish face that frightened Leon; and it frightened Janet
Andrews as Felix rushed past her in the hall of the manse.
"Child,
what's the matter with you?" she cried. "Are you sick? Have you been
scared?"
"No, no. Leave me alone, Janet," said Felix chokingly, dashing
up the stairs to his own room.
He was quite composed when he came down
to tea, an hour later, though he was unusually pale and had purple shadows
under his large eyes.
Mr. Leonard scrutinized him somewhat anxiously; it
suddenly occurred to the old minister that Felix was looking more delicate
than his wont this spring. Well, he had studied hard all winter, and he was
certainly growing very fast. When vacation came he must be sent away for a
visit.
"They tell me Naomi Clark is real sick," said Janet. "She has
been ailing all winter, and now she's fast to her bed. Mrs. Murphy says
she believes the woman is dying, but nobody dares tell her so. She
won't give in she's sick, nor take medicine. And there's nobody to wait on
her except that simple creature, Maggie Peterson."
"I wonder if I
ought to go and see her," said Mr. Leonard uneasily.
"What use would it
be to bother yourself? You know she wouldn't see you--she'd shut the door in
your face like she did before. She's an awful wicked woman--but it's kind of
terrible to think of her lying there sick, with no responsible person to tend
her."
"Naomi Clark is a bad woman and she lived a life of shame, but I
like her, for all that," remarked Felix, in the grave, meditative tone
in which he occasionally said rather startling things.
Mr. Leonard
looked somewhat reproachfully at Janet Andrews, as if to ask her why Felix
should have attained to this dubious knowledge of good and evil under her
care; and Janet shot a dour look back which, being interpreted, meant that if
Felix went to the district school she could not and would not be held
responsible if he learned more there than arithmetic and Latin.
"What
do you know of Naomi Clark to like or dislike?" she asked curiously. "Did you
ever see her?"
"Oh, yes," Felix replied, addressing himself to his cherry
preserve with considerable gusto. "I was down at Spruce Cove one night last
summer when a big thunderstorm came up. I went to Naomi's house for
shelter. The door was open, so I walked right in, because nobody answered
my knock. Naomi Clark was at the window, watching the cloud coming up
over the sea. She just looked at me once, but didn't say anything, and
then went on watching the cloud. I didn't like to sit down because she
hadn't asked me to, so I went to the window by her and watched it, too. It
was a dreadful sight--the cloud was so black and the water so green,
and there was such a strange light between the cloud and the water;
yet there was something splendid in it, too. Part of the time I watched
the storm, and the other part I watched Naomi's face. It was dreadful
to see, like the storm, and yet I liked to see it.
"After the thunder
was over it rained a while longer, and Naomi sat down and talked to me. She
asked me who I was, and when I told her she asked me to play something for
her on her violin,"--Felix shot a deprecating glance at Mr.
Leonard--"because, she said, she'd heard I was a great hand at it. She wanted
something lively, and I tried just as hard as I could to play something like
that. But I couldn't. I played something that was terrible--it just played
itself--it seemed as if something was lost that could never be found again.
And before I got through, Naomi came at me, and tore the violin from me,
and--SWORE. And she said, 'You big-eyed brat, how did you know THAT?' Then
she took me by the arm--and she hurt me, too, I can tell you--and she put me
right out in the rain and slammed the door."
"The rude, unmannerly
creature!" said Janet indignantly.
"Oh, no, she was quite in the right,"
said Felix composedly. "It served me right for what I played. You see, she
didn't know I couldn't help playing it. I suppose she thought I did it on
purpose."
"What on earth did you play, child?"
"I don't know."
Felix shivered. "It was awful--it was dreadful. It was fit to break your
heart. But it HAD to be played, if I played anything at all."
"I don't
understand what you mean--I declare I don't," said Janet
in bewilderment.
"I think we'll change the subject of conversation,"
said Mr. Leonard.
It was a month later when "the simple creature,
Maggie" appeared at the manse door one evening and asked for the
preached.
"Naomi wants ter see yer," she mumbled. "Naomi sent Maggie ter
tell yer ter come at onct."
"I shall go, certainly," said Mr. Leonard
gently. "Is she very ill?"
"Her's dying," said Maggie with a broad grin.
"And her's awful skeered of hell. Her just knew ter-day her was dying. Maggie
told her--her wouldn't believe the harbour women, but her believed Maggie.
Her yelled awful."
Maggie chuckled to herself over the gruesome
remembrance. Mr. Leonard, his heart filled with pity, called Janet and told
her to give the poor creature some refreshment. But Maggie shook her
head.
"No, no, preacher, Maggie must get right back to Naomi. Maggie'll
tell her the preacher's coming ter save her from hell."
She uttered an
eerie cry, and ran at full speed shoreward through the spruce
woods.
"The Lord save us!" said Janet in an awed tone. "I knew the poor
girl was simple, but I didn't know she was like THAT. And are you
going, sir?"
"Yes, of course. I pray God I may be able to help the
poor soul," said Mr. Leonard sincerely. He was a man who never shirked what
he believed to be his duty; but duty had sometimes presented itself to him
in pleasanter guise than this summons to Naomi Clark's death-bed.
The
woman had been the plague spot of Lower Carmody and Carmody Harbour for a
generation. In the earlier days of his ministry to the congregation he had
tried to reclaim her, and Naomi had mocked and flouted him to his face. Then,
for the sake of those to whom she was a snare or a heart-break, he had
endeavoured to set the law in motion against her, and Naomi had laughed the
law to scorn. Finally, he had been compelled to let her alone.
Yet
Naomi had not always been an outcast. Her girlhood had been innocent; but she
was the possessor of a dangerous beauty, and her mother was dead. Her father
was a man notorious for his harshness and violence of temper. When Naomi made
the fatal mistake of trusting to a false love that betrayed and deserted, he
drove her from his door with taunts and curses.
Naomi took up her
quarters in a little deserted house at Spruce Cove. Had her child lived it
might have saved her. But it died at birth, and with its little life went her
last chance of worldly redemption. From that time forth, her feet were set in
the way that takes hold on hell.
For the past five years, however, Naomi
had lived a tolerably respectable life. When Janet Peterson had died, her
idiot daughter, Maggie, had been left with no kin in the world. Nobody knew
what was to be done with her, for nobody wanted to be bothered with her.
Naomi Clark went to the girl and offered her a home. People said she was no
fit person to have charge of Maggie, but everybody shirked the
unpleasant task of interfering in the matter, except Mr. Leonard, who went
to expostulate with Naomi, and, as Janet said, for his pains got her
door shut in his face.
But from the day when Maggie Peterson went to
live with her, Naomi ceased to be the harbour Magdalen.
The
sun had set when Mr. Leonard reached Spruce Cove, and the harbour was veiling
itself in a wondrous twilight splendour. Afar out, the sea lay throbbing and
purple, and the moan of the bar came through the sweet, chill spring air with
its burden of hopeless, endless longing and seeking. The sky was blossoming
into stars above the afterglow; out to the east the moon was rising, and the
sea beneath it was a thing of radiance and silver and glamour; and a little
harbour boat that went sailing across it was transmuted into an elfin shallop
from the coast of fairyland.
Mr. Leonard sighed as he turned from the
sinless beauty of the sea and sky to the threshold of Naomi Clark's house. It
was very small--one room below, and a sleeping-loft above; but a bed had been
made up for the sick woman by the down-stairs window looking out on the
harbour; and Naomi lay on it, with a lamp burning at her head and another at
her side, although it was not yet dark. A great dread of darkness had
always been one of Naomi's peculiarities.
She was tossing restlessly
on her poor couch, while Maggie crouched on a box at the foot. Mr. Leonard
had not seen her for five years, and he was shocked at the change in her. She
was much wasted; her clear-cut, aquiline features had been of the type which
becomes indescribably witch-like in old age, and, though Naomi Clark was
barely sixty, she looked as if she might be a hundred. Her hair streamed over
the pillow in white, uncared-for tresses, and the hands that plucked at
the bed-clothes were like wrinkled claws. Only her eyes were unchanged;
they were as blue and brilliant as ever, but now filled with such
agonized terror and appeal that Mr. Leonard's gentle heart almost stood
still with the horror of them. They were the eyes of a creature driven
wild with torture, hounded by furies, clutched by unutterable
fear.
Naomi sat up and dragged at his arm.
"Can you help me? Can
you help me?" she gasped imploringly. "Oh, I thought you'd never come! I was
skeered I'd die before you got here--die and go to hell. I didn't know before
today that I was dying. None of those cowards would tell me. Can you help
me?"
"If I cannot, God can," said Mr. Leonard gently. He felt himself
very helpless and inefficient before this awful terror and frenzy. He
had seen sad death-beds--troubled death-beds--ay, and despairing
death-beds, but never anything like this. "God!" Naomi's voice shrilled
terribly as she uttered the name. "I can't go to God for help. Oh, I'm
skeered of hell, but I'm skeereder still of God. I'd rather go to hell a
thousand times over than face God after the life I've lived. I tell you,
I'm sorry for living wicked--I was always sorry for it all the time.
There ain't never been a moment I wasn't sorry, though nobody would
believe it. I was driven on by fiends of hell. Oh, you don't
understand--you CAN'T understand--but I was always
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